A sea of tears will still be an understatement to this heartfelt mail. =('''

Dear badaman,

I saw .. with joy felt inside me, the photos of you through another link.

I saw .. the opposite of what ur mail told me. You seem good now. you look happy.

I caused you to lost a dear friend. But it's obvious that all of your friends except the fallen one are still holding you strong.

U may not know this, i cried buckets when i wrote that. I cried again when i saw ur reply.

And im crying now as im writing this.

I miss you.

And seeing you in such a good shape. i am so happy for you.



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D.Gray Man

I was once again reminded that i was not keeping my honors of which i've said that i will update my "diary" as frequently as i would now since i have gotten my white knight.

=p

I guess it's kinda difficult on my part because of the "obstacles" that i have to overcome. i have simply too much to upload and the thought of only uploading the 5 photos at a time is enough to deter me.

Ok, i'm simply lazy.

My Hongkong trip... my Bintan trip.. my zoo trip.. woah..
photos alone... geez.. i don't know when i can finish.

And the thoughts of the moment.. my short term memory isn't helping me either.

So either i start afresh or slowly, really slowly pick up the pieces here and there.

So tonight, i decided to blog about some issues. i guess it's related to the philosophy of life.

I have just finish a 103 worth of episodes of anime. That's explain the title. "D.Gray Man"

I do not know how others see it. I don't care. It's an enjoyment to me. A leisure. An interest. A stress reliever.

At the same time, i do learnt a great deal from it.

The story evolves around exorcists who are working for an Order, beliving in God, to exterminate the akumas, who are the monsters created by the Earl who well, i suppose its the devil lor. The monsters destroyed human race.
And the exorcists are racing time to destroy the akumas.

The exorcists learnt to become stronger. Fighting hard to get what they want. To protect their loved ones.
The main lead, Allen Walker said "i will choose to go forward. i will not turn back" in the show when he realised that if by going forward with the journey, more dangers are lurking. by turning back, maybe a better choice. But he chose not to.

The ending i thought probably should end with the Earl dead. All akumas are destroyed. But nope. It wasn't that way.

I just felt.

It's the same with life.

One should only learn to become stronger. To protect oneself. Their loved ones.
We can only move forward. Keep on improving ourselves. And not staying at the same spot 5 yrs from now. 10 yrs from now.

We should look forward to all opportunities which will increase our knowledges, open our mindset, widen our horizon and broaden our perspective.

We can't stay put and remain unchanged.

Because everything is a constant change around us.

Obstacles are every where. We must know how to fight them
Overcome them. Have solutions. Not reactions.

And, there will never be a day without problems.
Because without them, we wouldn't know what are solutions.

Without the bitterness in life, how do we know that sweet is sweet.

We have to embrace all that is coming to us, whether good or bad.

That's life.