Suddenly i feel very small.

Thinking back the problems surrounding me.

Thinking about the vexing problems that the friends around me faced.

End of the day, is it that important?

Look at what the world is doing to us.

And look at how we have come to learn to treasure the people, the environment and all that surrounds us.

If we can find time to bear grudges. To be selfish. To be angry.

I'm sure it's more worth to find time to be happy.

Anyone in their sound mind will do the latter. But the former always gets in the way.

Life.

That Shining Bright Light in Midst of Negativities

I'm not refering to the charity shows.
But rather.. while there are major unfortunate incidents happening around the world, it also seems like the smaller circle encirling me, is also in despair.

Just over one weekend, was updated of news of one might be losing husband, love and perhaps a float of life.
And another? succumbing to the greed and fallen behind bars.

And the chit chatting among the gals is on 'sub standard guys'.
Guys who prey for one butterfly for another.
Guys who can't stay true.
Guys who failed their most basic critieria of having a stable income.
Guys who simply... disappointed... betrayed... and allow the women who love them the most... to cry...

But... i'm fortunate.
I'm lucky.
He loves me.
He dotes me.
He is true.
And also, we really do make efforts to build... to maintain... to improve the bond between us.
Can i say, there is this compatibility hiding in the otherwise "poles-apart-us"?
=) *sweetness*

Alot to write. But im stuck at where to start.
Mind being hogged by the somewhat wisdom words in the book "Into the Wild".
Another portion of it, thinking about the Cambodia trip in June.
Physical state is in dire condition from the work.
Mental and emotional health? No idea.

Time is not enough lately. Especially for thoughts.

Thoughts

Quite a lot of disturbing news lately.

The Austria outrage.
The Myanmar cyclone.
And yesterday, the China earthquake.

Why does it seem that there are so much negativity around us?
Are there not the happier incidents?

For instance... i'm happy that i'm still alive. That my loved ones are around me, with me.

Have to admit, this saying is rather old fashioned but yet its so true.

And then watching the "Healing Hands" the other night, i was reminded a lovely story again.

There was once this man. An angel came to him saying that she will grant him any wish. And so the man made his wish to live better and to have more. However, as time passes by, the man felt he was getting more and more miserable and nothing of better. There was in fact no improvement to speak of but deterioration of much.
One day, the angel appeared again. The man pleaded with the angel to reverse his wish. He wanted to live the way he was again. And so, the angel granted him his wish.

Initially.,what the angel did was, she took away everything that the man owns.
Then, she return him whatever he has own before.

You see? One always only learnt to appreciate when it's gone.

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Actually, what purposes do we serve by just being here...

I have no idea.

These days i'm reading a book titled "Into the Wild".

It's very intriguing.

About how a man who forsakes his comfort zone and head out to the wild all by himself.
To probably seeks a kind of enlightment. To live the way he just want it to be.
To have a different kind of experience.
Not just being a puppet.
To be able to let go of 'emotional strings' of all sorts.

It's not easy, isn't it?

Perhaps this was his calling.

Like Issac. The Singaporean man who readily gave up his iron rice bowl to further himself in a place where he has never been before. On paper, it was to further his studies, to obtain a degree. In fact, he was there to learn about the passion that has overwhelmed him. His love for TANGO.
And that was his calling.

And there are those, who go out all the way to achieve what they firmly believe in. Not following the usual trend. The usual pattern. The robot mode?

People who willing to take risks. To explore. To learn.

But this man. He gave up everything just to experience the world.
Being penniless. Burnt all his cash. Donated his wealth. Disappeared from his family.

Is this courage? Or simply being imbecile.
Is he insane or it's just that he has enough of this materialistic world.

Looking forward to finish this book.

The Austria Outrage

There was this big headlines recently in the papers.
About how a father cruelly and insanely prison his very own daughter for 24 years.
And he even had the audacity to father with her 7 children which had one ended up in death during infancy period.

This news made me very perplexed.

About how the human mind works.

What are these kind of people thinking?

Why do they did these actions?

Or was it the chemical reactions that was going through their heads that control them?

Is it the same kind of theory for a man who has excessively production of female hormones which will result him in being femininely? Does it apply the same to these irrationally behaviour?

Like in Hannibal?

Hannibal does exist. Not referring to the exotic African tribes who does eat human flesh.
But about a German, or rather 2 Germans.
One willing to be cut alive and be eaten.
The other hunger for human flesh. Desperate.
It was a real article. A real story that happened in the year 2000.

Disturbed. Very disturbed.