Don't want.
Refused.
..
..
..
To admit..
admitting into "loveisck hospital" while B is away on a short trip.
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Monday, May 28, 2007
reflections
B once commented that i'm the sort who waits for things to happen.
Perhaps due to the laidback character of mine? . Don't like to be forcing on people.
The kind who take things as it is, though with a little complains here and there.
Just wanting to appreciate things as it is now.
To be hunger for more, yes it is good. But to get greedier and unable to be satisify easily, it's not healthy.
Yet somehow, we can't always just sit and wait, don't we?
Perhaps due to the laidback character of mine? . Don't like to be forcing on people.
The kind who take things as it is, though with a little complains here and there.
Just wanting to appreciate things as it is now.
To be hunger for more, yes it is good. But to get greedier and unable to be satisify easily, it's not healthy.
Yet somehow, we can't always just sit and wait, don't we?
Wasn't a nice weekend. Was supposed to chilll out @ LK after work on fri but silly me. Forgotten that i had to get medication from the doctor. ARGH!!!
Shdn't have went in the first place too for the female doctor was on maternity leave. Double ARGH!!!
Imagine my shock when i opened the door to see a MALE doctor!!!Oh well, at least it's not the male doc that i dislike la...and finally got my medication.
Over the weekend, had a simple lunch with my folks and acompanied them for a couple of hours of window shopping. And someone pls remind me why i had not like shopping with my folks. Sigh.
Anyway, one of my dear gf smsed me yesterday in the early morning.
It goes like this, "he was drunk. elbowed a stranger and even punched a friend. had several msgs but due to the drunkard state, unable to reply. offer to reply to the 'christopher' and was astonished to find it was a girl. very suspicious and replied a msg for him, telling the 'chris' that he's at his gf's hse and gg to sleep soon. reply came was ' y are u always at ur gf's hse'. she had mentioned abt breaking up but he simply ignored her."
Makes me ponder...
love is indeed blind...
And what should one do when am really in love with this person but can't take it when one of his/her habits is really unbearable or eventually become intolerable?
Just like this couple.
The gf is really buay tahan of his ignorance of his alcohol limit. Though it's not an every week affair. But to happen periodically and to tidy up the mess he had created everytime, has taken a toil on the gf.
And then come the msg which is suggesting the bf is having an affair.
It was shown in the channel 8 drama that "when one is in love, one will be not calculative and am magnanimous".
It's simply not easy isn't it?
It's all about compromising. The give and take.
Can't be the gf always clean up the mess. Take the bf's nonsense. And the bf kept insisting that this kind of thing only happen once in a blue moon.
Hmmm...at the same time, quarrels and tiffs are like necessities in a relationship. That is when both are able to talk things out...overcome the problem...and hence, become closer than before.
And in that manner, it's good huh...provided the mistake ain't a repeated one i guess.
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B going for a short trip in the later part of the week. A short trip to Genting with his friends.
Gona to miss him lots and lots. =(
Still, was contented that he had made time for this little wilful piggy.
=) Well, time for my plans too...been detached with some bros and friends for a long long time le...
Shdn't have went in the first place too for the female doctor was on maternity leave. Double ARGH!!!
Imagine my shock when i opened the door to see a MALE doctor!!!Oh well, at least it's not the male doc that i dislike la...and finally got my medication.
Over the weekend, had a simple lunch with my folks and acompanied them for a couple of hours of window shopping. And someone pls remind me why i had not like shopping with my folks. Sigh.
Anyway, one of my dear gf smsed me yesterday in the early morning.
It goes like this, "he was drunk. elbowed a stranger and even punched a friend. had several msgs but due to the drunkard state, unable to reply. offer to reply to the 'christopher' and was astonished to find it was a girl. very suspicious and replied a msg for him, telling the 'chris' that he's at his gf's hse and gg to sleep soon. reply came was ' y are u always at ur gf's hse'. she had mentioned abt breaking up but he simply ignored her."
Makes me ponder...
love is indeed blind...
And what should one do when am really in love with this person but can't take it when one of his/her habits is really unbearable or eventually become intolerable?
Just like this couple.
The gf is really buay tahan of his ignorance of his alcohol limit. Though it's not an every week affair. But to happen periodically and to tidy up the mess he had created everytime, has taken a toil on the gf.
And then come the msg which is suggesting the bf is having an affair.
It was shown in the channel 8 drama that "when one is in love, one will be not calculative and am magnanimous".
It's simply not easy isn't it?
It's all about compromising. The give and take.
Can't be the gf always clean up the mess. Take the bf's nonsense. And the bf kept insisting that this kind of thing only happen once in a blue moon.
Hmmm...at the same time, quarrels and tiffs are like necessities in a relationship. That is when both are able to talk things out...overcome the problem...and hence, become closer than before.
And in that manner, it's good huh...provided the mistake ain't a repeated one i guess.
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B going for a short trip in the later part of the week. A short trip to Genting with his friends.
Gona to miss him lots and lots. =(
Still, was contented that he had made time for this little wilful piggy.
=) Well, time for my plans too...been detached with some bros and friends for a long long time le...
Friday, May 25, 2007
confession
a mere half hour of surfing.
a moment of impulsiveness.
my very first time.
purchased 11 items.
after discount its 236.11.
with the risk of bad quality and unfitting cuts.
and now i pray for forgiveness.
a moment of impulsiveness.
my very first time.
purchased 11 items.
after discount its 236.11.
with the risk of bad quality and unfitting cuts.
and now i pray for forgiveness.
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Men Bad Bad Why
Last night, B got home a little late due to some disruption of the train services.
But luckily still managed to catch a little bit of the new variety show.
It was about men's face ('ego'). How the men want their women to show them face.
Like for instance, in the guy's birthday party, he was sabotaged till his whole face was covered with cake and got angry with the gf simply because the gf was together with the rest, laughing at him.
And there was another instance of this man dating 'cindy crawford'. They were all alone in a island, the whole world to them. Yet the man is unhappy. Later he got 'cindy crawford' to dress as a man and told 'her' to walk along the beach.
When the man saw 'him' walking along the beach, his face suddenly revealed a smile and quickly ran towards 'him' and whispered in 'his' ears that "wo shang le cindy crawford!!!".
It's hilarious. Men and their ego.
Well, everyone has their ego ...only to what extent ...
Someone told me before, my ego is ain't lesser than a guy.
Hmmm... ... ...
Have i changed so far? Am i still the same?
Or it was not so in the first place?
But luckily still managed to catch a little bit of the new variety show.
It was about men's face ('ego'). How the men want their women to show them face.
Like for instance, in the guy's birthday party, he was sabotaged till his whole face was covered with cake and got angry with the gf simply because the gf was together with the rest, laughing at him.
And there was another instance of this man dating 'cindy crawford'. They were all alone in a island, the whole world to them. Yet the man is unhappy. Later he got 'cindy crawford' to dress as a man and told 'her' to walk along the beach.
When the man saw 'him' walking along the beach, his face suddenly revealed a smile and quickly ran towards 'him' and whispered in 'his' ears that "wo shang le cindy crawford!!!".
It's hilarious. Men and their ego.
Well, everyone has their ego ...only to what extent ...
Someone told me before, my ego is ain't lesser than a guy.
Hmmm... ... ...
Have i changed so far? Am i still the same?
Or it was not so in the first place?
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
responsibility versus irresponsibility
this colleague of mine. die die, refused and rejected to handle PI cases when in the very first place was told that it is include in her scope of work.
result? the audacity to tell the boss that she's too busy with divorce/probate matters and hence don't want to do the PI.
absurd? alittle.
who's not busy here? it's how one allocate time and places priority of the cases, isn't it so?
slightly a month after she came. the files are now passed over to my mama snakie.
and during the period of time which the files were under her care, they were all stagnant. In Q to rot.
now the clients are taking turns to call and check the status. complains and lots of questions...
fair enough, she does seem THAT busy with her files. but is that really the case?
much discussion among ourselves and we are still blur.
still really can't get a reason out of her busy-ness.
sigh...
so 'responsible' towards the file that she enjoys doing but yet...there are still messes around...
screwing up another colleague's file...sigh...
seems so professional but in actual fact, is she that 'zai' after all???
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RESPONSIBLE= ain't it suppose to be meaning that irregardless of whether you love or loathe, you have contribute out the best effort?
shrinking responsibility = running away from the reality which only means cowardly mindset.
since choices already made, yet doesn't wanna carry the entire load? Since when we can both cakes?
i'm not that saint, yet, still must 'DO' de lor...
*double sigh*
*triple sigh*
anyway, this shall be the last of the complains...
wonder whatever happen to the resolution of not gossiping?!!
i swear not to anymore!!!
hmmm...Try my best lahh...
it's women's nature lahh...
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Watch an interesting variety show last night together with B.
It's all about men. Hosted by Zheng Guo Cheng and Zhang Yu.
Last night's topic was about men's female confidant becoming their lovers.
I only have one comment and one thought.
The latter being, what's yours will be yours, with of course efforts must be spent in maintaining and cultivating the relationship.
The former being, there are true platonic friendships. But when the partner is too hysterical and over suspicious, then that's actually the work of the partner in driving the two being together. Makes sense?
Then there was this 'case' being brought up.
About this man and his female friend.
He understands her to the extent of knowing her likes and dislikes.
Knows her mood instantly.
Familiar with basically her everything.
Will rush to her aid at any time of the day.
Can even share the same bed without doing anything.
Haha..that is if the man is with the female friend at all times lor..dan there comes with Q of why still being with a man who cares someone else more than you???...
It's a fine line between alot of matters, still the line is there.
Reminds me of a pie chart. A pie time chart. And also a balance to everything. There can be never 100% of time given to any area. Only 100% effort and concentration to be given out at the moment of time.
If a person dedicates 100% of the time to the partner, what will you think of how he treats his family and friends?
If a person dedicates 100% of the time to his work, would you think love be on his mind?
Likewise for a person who dedicated 100% of his time to his family, it may only shows that he's only looking into the present but not to the future where he may needs someone to walk with him the rest of the journey.
We need work to keep us going. To keep us alive in the times ahead.
We need family to have that sense of belonging. To make us human and not animals.
We need friends to keep us sane. To grow and learn together.
We need someone special to make us feel special. To love and beloved.
I'm getting too free in the office. . .oopss...too much of blabblings here...
result? the audacity to tell the boss that she's too busy with divorce/probate matters and hence don't want to do the PI.
absurd? alittle.
who's not busy here? it's how one allocate time and places priority of the cases, isn't it so?
slightly a month after she came. the files are now passed over to my mama snakie.
and during the period of time which the files were under her care, they were all stagnant. In Q to rot.
now the clients are taking turns to call and check the status. complains and lots of questions...
fair enough, she does seem THAT busy with her files. but is that really the case?
much discussion among ourselves and we are still blur.
still really can't get a reason out of her busy-ness.
sigh...
so 'responsible' towards the file that she enjoys doing but yet...there are still messes around...
screwing up another colleague's file...sigh...
seems so professional but in actual fact, is she that 'zai' after all???
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RESPONSIBLE= ain't it suppose to be meaning that irregardless of whether you love or loathe, you have contribute out the best effort?
shrinking responsibility = running away from the reality which only means cowardly mindset.
since choices already made, yet doesn't wanna carry the entire load? Since when we can both cakes?
i'm not that saint, yet, still must 'DO' de lor...
*double sigh*
*triple sigh*
anyway, this shall be the last of the complains...
wonder whatever happen to the resolution of not gossiping?!!
i swear not to anymore!!!
hmmm...Try my best lahh...
it's women's nature lahh...
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Watch an interesting variety show last night together with B.
It's all about men. Hosted by Zheng Guo Cheng and Zhang Yu.
Last night's topic was about men's female confidant becoming their lovers.
I only have one comment and one thought.
The latter being, what's yours will be yours, with of course efforts must be spent in maintaining and cultivating the relationship.
The former being, there are true platonic friendships. But when the partner is too hysterical and over suspicious, then that's actually the work of the partner in driving the two being together. Makes sense?
Then there was this 'case' being brought up.
About this man and his female friend.
He understands her to the extent of knowing her likes and dislikes.
Knows her mood instantly.
Familiar with basically her everything.
Will rush to her aid at any time of the day.
Can even share the same bed without doing anything.
Haha..that is if the man is with the female friend at all times lor..dan there comes with Q of why still being with a man who cares someone else more than you???...
It's a fine line between alot of matters, still the line is there.
Reminds me of a pie chart. A pie time chart. And also a balance to everything. There can be never 100% of time given to any area. Only 100% effort and concentration to be given out at the moment of time.
If a person dedicates 100% of the time to the partner, what will you think of how he treats his family and friends?
If a person dedicates 100% of the time to his work, would you think love be on his mind?
Likewise for a person who dedicated 100% of his time to his family, it may only shows that he's only looking into the present but not to the future where he may needs someone to walk with him the rest of the journey.
We need work to keep us going. To keep us alive in the times ahead.
We need family to have that sense of belonging. To make us human and not animals.
We need friends to keep us sane. To grow and learn together.
We need someone special to make us feel special. To love and beloved.
I'm getting too free in the office. . .oopss...too much of blabblings here...
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
i'm only human.
i have my flaws but i'm striving to be better.
but you have to remember to give me room for otherwise results.
the reason why it's so hard to be consistently good,
it's that the failure are there to remind us that we can't take the good times for granted.
Monday Chill Out Nite
First Message of the Day!!! Yeah, Friendship!!! Heehee...=)
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Last evening, when i was barely out of the Raffles zone, hurrying my way to vivo as i was almost running late, Junie dear called. She didn't even had to say what is the purpose of the call, coz i just knew it. Lolx...to unwind at Harrys.
So while she waited for her pig, on the other side, another pig waiting for her master to knock off.
Haha...
Dinner was at Hog's Breathe. Food was good, except for the 'flying ribs'. =p It flew off my plate, attempted a failed bunge jump, left tracks on my pants and alittle food was wasted. It was a good thing that B and Junie dear's pig were out smoking then. Hmmm...talk about being sweet to B, cutting the ribs for him and ended up with stained pants.
-.-'''
Harrys was unexceptionally crowded last nite. 80% of the house was filled. Beer...Jungle Juice...Dirty Harry...and not forgetting the purpose of heading to Harrys. Pool playing.
However, there was a distraction last night.
As usual, the music was good. The company was excellent. However, the whole lot of us were rather disgusted by an extremely lovey dovey couple. Almost wanting to believe that they were sharing one chair or maybe they are a pair of siamese twins?
For hours, the guy's arms were around the girl as though she had wings on her back.
Ohh..main point, the guy ain't any good looking at all. *shaking head profusely* But the girl ain't too bad de lor...sigh...
Oh, and while Junie dear, B and me were on way back to the pub after loo visiting, Junie dear said something which i instantly loved it. It's classic.
B was saying about 9 out of 10 balds are rich, and he's the 10th. Then Junie dear said, if i ask my pig to shave his head, then the ratio will be down to 8 out of 10 are rich le.
Haahaa..
End of the day, i guess B and i were exhausted. Falling asleep on train is not surprising but to miss the stop at sk? Well, I must be really tired. Luckily, i still managed to be woken up by the messages the station was announcing at pg. Else...the station manager come wake us up lor...what's the big deal? haha...
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Last evening, when i was barely out of the Raffles zone, hurrying my way to vivo as i was almost running late, Junie dear called. She didn't even had to say what is the purpose of the call, coz i just knew it. Lolx...to unwind at Harrys.
So while she waited for her pig, on the other side, another pig waiting for her master to knock off.
Haha...
Dinner was at Hog's Breathe. Food was good, except for the 'flying ribs'. =p It flew off my plate, attempted a failed bunge jump, left tracks on my pants and alittle food was wasted. It was a good thing that B and Junie dear's pig were out smoking then. Hmmm...talk about being sweet to B, cutting the ribs for him and ended up with stained pants.
-.-'''
Harrys was unexceptionally crowded last nite. 80% of the house was filled. Beer...Jungle Juice...Dirty Harry...and not forgetting the purpose of heading to Harrys. Pool playing.
However, there was a distraction last night.
As usual, the music was good. The company was excellent. However, the whole lot of us were rather disgusted by an extremely lovey dovey couple. Almost wanting to believe that they were sharing one chair or maybe they are a pair of siamese twins?
For hours, the guy's arms were around the girl as though she had wings on her back.
Ohh..main point, the guy ain't any good looking at all. *shaking head profusely* But the girl ain't too bad de lor...sigh...
Oh, and while Junie dear, B and me were on way back to the pub after loo visiting, Junie dear said something which i instantly loved it. It's classic.
B was saying about 9 out of 10 balds are rich, and he's the 10th. Then Junie dear said, if i ask my pig to shave his head, then the ratio will be down to 8 out of 10 are rich le.
Haahaa..
End of the day, i guess B and i were exhausted. Falling asleep on train is not surprising but to miss the stop at sk? Well, I must be really tired. Luckily, i still managed to be woken up by the messages the station was announcing at pg. Else...the station manager come wake us up lor...what's the big deal? haha...
Monday, May 21, 2007
this came into my mind on saturday while day dreaming.
emptiness = lost = desperations = going crazy?
emptiness = lost = desperations = going crazy?
A lot of updates for the past weekend.
Well, firstly, for me to hmmm say my opinions since i didn't really have the chance to do so previously. And i know, heehee... you be reading this...=p
Honestly and truthfully, there is nothing for me to mind because in my case, i really believe in extremely good and platonic relationships between opposite sex. Yes, i may feel jealous because of certain happenings but hor, it's more of the positive kind of jealousy bah? Or can i say envious? And also, i believe in what is mine, will be mine lor. In the case of the flower...haha...actually i didn't mind. Not the gesture...not the outcome. I only, 'jie ti fa hui' de...because even if the recipient is his sister or a guy? haahaa, i will also say de lor that i don't even have a grass...lolx...=)
And hor...you really can make me -.-''' with your add-in dialouge...hahaha...
-Friday-
A night out to Balcony and Liquid Kitchen. In the company of B, Paul and Jo. My first try out for graveyard and i swear that it will be the first and last time. My face was practically distorted and i'm amazed that i could still swallowed it down. Haahaa...
We didn't sit for long at Balcony because the place made us uncomfortable. Liquid Kitchen was suggested and off we go. Chivas...Thai spring rolls...Lamb samosa...bacon sausages...cherries!!!
Wonder if it's a good thingy or bad thingy now that my weakness for cherries has been revealed. Sigh...B was ignoring my greediness for the cherries...and Paul was happily teasing me away...
End of the night, B surprised me by opting to stay at my place instead. First time!!!
-Saturday-
B and i woke up early to have breakfast. Pratas...Kway chap...
And finally!!! B bowels are moving!!! After days of constipation and indigestion, he finally able to let it out. =D
But hor...tummy still big le...wondering if it's part of the 'middle age men blues'...heehee...
Nothing surprising on saturday because most of the time, it's a routine for me. Chores and sleep.
Slept from 12 noon till 3. Waited for the air con guy to come service my air con and i think he nearly fainted.
Hey, it's my air con first time le...*oops...yup, imagine the state of the air con when it's already more than 2 years old. yucks...dirt beyond imagination.
After that, done the washing and mopping, it's off to slumberland again. 5plus till 7plus.
What a luxurious dosage of vitamin ZZzzzz.
Progam for the night was tv because B went to St. James.
Chose to wait for him because i don't want my gastric juice to shoot high levels again. Besides, i don't dance.
Places for me now i think are narrowing down to Harry's...ICB...Alley Bar...LK etc...
-Sunday-
hmmm...a really relaxing and idling day.
Like the night before, B chose to acompany me again at my place.
It is really nice. I know he didn't like my place because of the current situation. I know it's awkward. Just that it can't be helped.
More than half the day was gone just idling...in the arms of B.
Then we went for dinner at kovan. Wanted to have satay, sotong mee and oyster omelette but the coffeechop apparantly was closed because of leaking roof. Had bah chor mee and pork ribs instead.
Then shortly after we got home @ sk, we went out for a stroll and chat.
B shared with me his sumary of the past ten years and we chatted about some topics which end of the day, i'm really really happy.
Perhaps this was what's missing in the past relationship. Something that is so common yet important.
Quality communication.
Making time specially just for each other to share the past...to chat about the present life...and what one wishes and dreams beyond...
I have this image of a korean that comes into my mind. "All About Eve". This guy who would use his hands and fingers to action as though he's taking pictures. And he is merely capturing pictures with his eyes. And the pictures are forever stored in his memory.
This is what i'm feeling. Looking into B' eyes, seeing his funny, comical facial expressions. Just want to remember forever.
*above are just very summarised happenings...well, i do need to get back to work too...=p
*subjected to editing when free time is allow...hee
Well, firstly, for me to hmmm say my opinions since i didn't really have the chance to do so previously. And i know, heehee... you be reading this...=p
Honestly and truthfully, there is nothing for me to mind because in my case, i really believe in extremely good and platonic relationships between opposite sex. Yes, i may feel jealous because of certain happenings but hor, it's more of the positive kind of jealousy bah? Or can i say envious? And also, i believe in what is mine, will be mine lor. In the case of the flower...haha...actually i didn't mind. Not the gesture...not the outcome. I only, 'jie ti fa hui' de...because even if the recipient is his sister or a guy? haahaa, i will also say de lor that i don't even have a grass...lolx...=)
And hor...you really can make me -.-''' with your add-in dialouge...hahaha...
-Friday-
A night out to Balcony and Liquid Kitchen. In the company of B, Paul and Jo. My first try out for graveyard and i swear that it will be the first and last time. My face was practically distorted and i'm amazed that i could still swallowed it down. Haahaa...
We didn't sit for long at Balcony because the place made us uncomfortable. Liquid Kitchen was suggested and off we go. Chivas...Thai spring rolls...Lamb samosa...bacon sausages...cherries!!!
Wonder if it's a good thingy or bad thingy now that my weakness for cherries has been revealed. Sigh...B was ignoring my greediness for the cherries...and Paul was happily teasing me away...
End of the night, B surprised me by opting to stay at my place instead. First time!!!
-Saturday-
B and i woke up early to have breakfast. Pratas...Kway chap...
And finally!!! B bowels are moving!!! After days of constipation and indigestion, he finally able to let it out. =D
But hor...tummy still big le...wondering if it's part of the 'middle age men blues'...heehee...
Nothing surprising on saturday because most of the time, it's a routine for me. Chores and sleep.
Slept from 12 noon till 3. Waited for the air con guy to come service my air con and i think he nearly fainted.
Hey, it's my air con first time le...*oops...yup, imagine the state of the air con when it's already more than 2 years old. yucks...dirt beyond imagination.
After that, done the washing and mopping, it's off to slumberland again. 5plus till 7plus.
What a luxurious dosage of vitamin ZZzzzz.
Progam for the night was tv because B went to St. James.
Chose to wait for him because i don't want my gastric juice to shoot high levels again. Besides, i don't dance.
Places for me now i think are narrowing down to Harry's...ICB...Alley Bar...LK etc...
-Sunday-
hmmm...a really relaxing and idling day.
Like the night before, B chose to acompany me again at my place.
It is really nice. I know he didn't like my place because of the current situation. I know it's awkward. Just that it can't be helped.
More than half the day was gone just idling...in the arms of B.
Then we went for dinner at kovan. Wanted to have satay, sotong mee and oyster omelette but the coffeechop apparantly was closed because of leaking roof. Had bah chor mee and pork ribs instead.
Then shortly after we got home @ sk, we went out for a stroll and chat.
B shared with me his sumary of the past ten years and we chatted about some topics which end of the day, i'm really really happy.
Perhaps this was what's missing in the past relationship. Something that is so common yet important.
Quality communication.
Making time specially just for each other to share the past...to chat about the present life...and what one wishes and dreams beyond...
I have this image of a korean that comes into my mind. "All About Eve". This guy who would use his hands and fingers to action as though he's taking pictures. And he is merely capturing pictures with his eyes. And the pictures are forever stored in his memory.
This is what i'm feeling. Looking into B' eyes, seeing his funny, comical facial expressions. Just want to remember forever.
*above are just very summarised happenings...well, i do need to get back to work too...=p
*subjected to editing when free time is allow...hee
Friday, May 18, 2007
Thoughts running...
"the right person is never too far away, it just that we happen to look too far out and didn't realise what's right in front of us"
"the price of a pride and ego will always be lesser than what it was bargaining with in the first place"
"like everything else, the bottle will be filled to the brim eventually"
"what is worthy and what is not? the scale is within"
"the right person is never too far away, it just that we happen to look too far out and didn't realise what's right in front of us"
"the price of a pride and ego will always be lesser than what it was bargaining with in the first place"
"like everything else, the bottle will be filled to the brim eventually"
"what is worthy and what is not? the scale is within"
Yesterday, while leaving the office at 645pm, *note: it's already well past the official knock off time at 6pm. my extremely handsome dashing boss aka asshole black bear, said: it's not even 7.
Idiot!
Oki, i'm still subjecting myself to such double or even triple standards in this dumb dumb office.
*resigning to fate*
Can't get my engine start.
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Things are back to normal since B dropped me a surprise on tuesday.
And B said something really really sweet last night while i was 'grooming' him...
He said he's the first person to be groomed by me and wants to be the last person as well.
=)
I'm poisoned. Beyond cure.
Idiot!
Oki, i'm still subjecting myself to such double or even triple standards in this dumb dumb office.
*resigning to fate*
Can't get my engine start.
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Things are back to normal since B dropped me a surprise on tuesday.
And B said something really really sweet last night while i was 'grooming' him...
He said he's the first person to be groomed by me and wants to be the last person as well.
=)
I'm poisoned. Beyond cure.
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
"The Moment of Truth"
B saw the smile on my face immediately when i stepped out of the office lift.
And he called that 'moment of the truth'.
And Junie dear commented that it's really easy to make woman happy.
Guess i have to agree with that too.
B gave me 2 big surprises by showing up at office and presenting me with the frozen strawberries when we were dining at MOS. *sweet sweet sweet*
Well, firstly, B really had the luck. Knocking time has been unpredictable lately with the earliest time i can leave is prob 630 and averagely around 7. B was prepared to wait for me. But xiong had decided to leave the office early and we gals really gota seize the chance. Barely 5mins after 6, 4 gals were out already.
B didn't have to wait.
Was practically seizing every chance to hug B there and then. It really had been a long while. This has to be the longest 'cold war' ever, 72hours. Gee...
And when B whispered into my ears that he missed me...it's simply melting...
And during the dinner at MOS, B suddenly just went off without saying where he's going and me thinking maybe he's heading to the loo or something. But nope...he went to get the frozen strawberries for me. =D
But but but...has the issue really been solved or just let it pass and get over with. Let the time cover the tracks.
And he called that 'moment of the truth'.
And Junie dear commented that it's really easy to make woman happy.
Guess i have to agree with that too.
B gave me 2 big surprises by showing up at office and presenting me with the frozen strawberries when we were dining at MOS. *sweet sweet sweet*
Well, firstly, B really had the luck. Knocking time has been unpredictable lately with the earliest time i can leave is prob 630 and averagely around 7. B was prepared to wait for me. But xiong had decided to leave the office early and we gals really gota seize the chance. Barely 5mins after 6, 4 gals were out already.
B didn't have to wait.
Was practically seizing every chance to hug B there and then. It really had been a long while. This has to be the longest 'cold war' ever, 72hours. Gee...
And when B whispered into my ears that he missed me...it's simply melting...
And during the dinner at MOS, B suddenly just went off without saying where he's going and me thinking maybe he's heading to the loo or something. But nope...he went to get the frozen strawberries for me. =D
But but but...has the issue really been solved or just let it pass and get over with. Let the time cover the tracks.
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
There was an idiot earlier on my msn window.
What i presume was a normal chat turns out otherwise.
His messages were *hugs* la..*massages* la..*licks* la..
Then said he find me interesting la...seeing the photos blah blah blah...
Well, at least he knows better than to continue further when i didn't reply. Simply boh chap.
And he's on the blocked list now.
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Argh!! and the headache is haunting me since yesterday??? can't remember.
What i presume was a normal chat turns out otherwise.
His messages were *hugs* la..*massages* la..*licks* la..
Then said he find me interesting la...seeing the photos blah blah blah...
Well, at least he knows better than to continue further when i didn't reply. Simply boh chap.
And he's on the blocked list now.
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Argh!! and the headache is haunting me since yesterday??? can't remember.
Was at lost yesterday after work. Didn't exactly wanna head home but yet hesitating in heading the usual joints.
Then Junie dear called me up.
After a long chat, we decided to meet up. Destination? Harry's @ HBF.
Pretty amazed at myself that i didn't 'walked by' the shop.
Junie dear had also said something which well makes sense ... but the stubborn me is still rather fuming.
It's like perhaps he still will not initiate to contact simply because he thinks you are still angry. And you on the other hand, fuming, going mad, suffocating oneself but he on the other hand, is living 'normally', waiting for your fire to cease off.
So while you are in angry mode, he is in normal mode.
Thing is, yes i miss him badly...feeling in extreme misery but ... just choosing to let things cool abit first.
In the past, it's always that i'm the first to initiate msg or calls after any angry issues. This time round, i guess i just refuse to submit as before. He has his reasons...fair enough...i have mine.
*can i work inside a giant fridge?
Talk about Harry's pub, it's a nice place which i think i will head back...even when there is no company around.
The guitarist was good. He had amazingly transformed the 'Hotel Carlifornia' into 'Hotel 81'. Lolx...
And the bartender, Kumar. Nice trick or maybe we gals are abit too slow. Haha...
*really missing B. oki, so how am i going to get my engine starts running...it was an extremely long day for yesterday...plus today...plus unknown no. of days...great...so this is how i'm going to torture myself.
Then Junie dear called me up.
After a long chat, we decided to meet up. Destination? Harry's @ HBF.
Pretty amazed at myself that i didn't 'walked by' the shop.
Junie dear had also said something which well makes sense ... but the stubborn me is still rather fuming.
It's like perhaps he still will not initiate to contact simply because he thinks you are still angry. And you on the other hand, fuming, going mad, suffocating oneself but he on the other hand, is living 'normally', waiting for your fire to cease off.
So while you are in angry mode, he is in normal mode.
Thing is, yes i miss him badly...feeling in extreme misery but ... just choosing to let things cool abit first.
In the past, it's always that i'm the first to initiate msg or calls after any angry issues. This time round, i guess i just refuse to submit as before. He has his reasons...fair enough...i have mine.
*can i work inside a giant fridge?
Talk about Harry's pub, it's a nice place which i think i will head back...even when there is no company around.
The guitarist was good. He had amazingly transformed the 'Hotel Carlifornia' into 'Hotel 81'. Lolx...
And the bartender, Kumar. Nice trick or maybe we gals are abit too slow. Haha...
*really missing B. oki, so how am i going to get my engine starts running...it was an extremely long day for yesterday...plus today...plus unknown no. of days...great...so this is how i'm going to torture myself.
Monday, May 14, 2007
such contradictions
the gf was told that the bf had really wished that the gf was with the bf at the chalet on saturday.
irony.
just don't at all make any sense to the gf.
why?
simply because the gf was told by the bf that he will be busy on the off day-saturday.
BUSY is the word.
If there is ANY intention at all in the first place, shouldn't the gf be hearing something else?
Then, surprisingly, the bf asked the gf on FRIDAY if she is free to acompany to the chalet on SATURDAY which is the next day.
If this is not consider last min, then what is last min.
the bf claimed that he did not know what timing to meet so only want to inform when everything is confirmed.
Funny huh...point is, the bf made known to the gf that he will be busy wor...so the bf is implying that although the gf knowing the bf be busy, she also must be free of stuff/plans etc???
too 'tired' to understand anything now.
irony.
just don't at all make any sense to the gf.
why?
simply because the gf was told by the bf that he will be busy on the off day-saturday.
BUSY is the word.
If there is ANY intention at all in the first place, shouldn't the gf be hearing something else?
Then, surprisingly, the bf asked the gf on FRIDAY if she is free to acompany to the chalet on SATURDAY which is the next day.
If this is not consider last min, then what is last min.
the bf claimed that he did not know what timing to meet so only want to inform when everything is confirmed.
Funny huh...point is, the bf made known to the gf that he will be busy wor...so the bf is implying that although the gf knowing the bf be busy, she also must be free of stuff/plans etc???
too 'tired' to understand anything now.
Friday, May 11, 2007
exasperation
when the boyfriend says he won't be free on saturday, is the girlfriend not right to make her own plans then?
does the girlfriend has the rights to be unhappy when the boyfriend, who has his saturday off, make known that he won't be free, and had his other off day being at home, not spending time with the girlfriend?
*Note: he has only 2 off days per wk
Surprisely that he had an additional off day in the same week but no intention of spending time with the girlfriend as well.
*Note again, he had chose to met up with his bro in the afternoon but what about evening when the girlfriend knocks off? It doesn't matter that if he had planned to head out the whole with the bro. But did the boyfriend say anything at all? Nothing at all. Stupid girlfriend choose not to disturb the boyfriend while he is out with his bro and stupidly waited for his sms but was in vain.
One whole week of time. 3 off days.
But the boyfriend is not allocating time for the girlfriend.
Except for an impromptu arrangement after work on one of the days to meet up for dinner. And the girlfriend was able to make it because she had forgotten about a dinner planned already actually, and in the end had set pigeon to her friend. If she had remember the dinner plan?
Now the girlfriend is *can't think of any words to describe the feelings.
Now the girlfriend wants quit of being just a bloster at nite.
The girlfriend is tired.
Questions asked are often acompanied with a "i will say if i wanna say" else, the answer will be given untruthfully. It's like just being 'fu yan' with.
Been lied about the age...been lied about the past...may seems funny...but...sense no sincerity from the boyfriend.
Sense no security too.
Is the girlfriend asking for too much?
does the girlfriend has the rights to be unhappy when the boyfriend, who has his saturday off, make known that he won't be free, and had his other off day being at home, not spending time with the girlfriend?
*Note: he has only 2 off days per wk
Surprisely that he had an additional off day in the same week but no intention of spending time with the girlfriend as well.
*Note again, he had chose to met up with his bro in the afternoon but what about evening when the girlfriend knocks off? It doesn't matter that if he had planned to head out the whole with the bro. But did the boyfriend say anything at all? Nothing at all. Stupid girlfriend choose not to disturb the boyfriend while he is out with his bro and stupidly waited for his sms but was in vain.
One whole week of time. 3 off days.
But the boyfriend is not allocating time for the girlfriend.
Except for an impromptu arrangement after work on one of the days to meet up for dinner. And the girlfriend was able to make it because she had forgotten about a dinner planned already actually, and in the end had set pigeon to her friend. If she had remember the dinner plan?
Now the girlfriend is *can't think of any words to describe the feelings.
Now the girlfriend wants quit of being just a bloster at nite.
The girlfriend is tired.
Questions asked are often acompanied with a "i will say if i wanna say" else, the answer will be given untruthfully. It's like just being 'fu yan' with.
Been lied about the age...been lied about the past...may seems funny...but...sense no sincerity from the boyfriend.
Sense no security too.
Is the girlfriend asking for too much?
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Arranged a dinner with my folks this saturday nite.
Funny huh, a dad's day dinner held in the weekend of Mum's day.
My folks.
Sometimes, i don't know if i can believe the words of my mum.
Yet, my dad is one whom don't expresses out well in words and actions. Well, the old stubborn tradition type de lor.
Still, there are my folks.
Funny huh, a dad's day dinner held in the weekend of Mum's day.
My folks.
Sometimes, i don't know if i can believe the words of my mum.
Yet, my dad is one whom don't expresses out well in words and actions. Well, the old stubborn tradition type de lor.
Still, there are my folks.
Mother's day is barely here yet.
Yet i have a sms from my mother saying that father wants a treat from both of us for Father's day.
My folks.
Since when they are learning about 'pre', 'on the day' and 'post'.
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I was browsing the law society webby earlier. Dhillion & Ptrs are hiring. So is LYTG and Madhavan.
Alittle tempting. But alot more hesitation.
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Plan to go carrfour after work. I have yet to get the seat cushion and some other stuffs.
But, i got my order of the blueberry tarts today. Have to go home straight after work instead.
Yet i have a sms from my mother saying that father wants a treat from both of us for Father's day.
My folks.
Since when they are learning about 'pre', 'on the day' and 'post'.
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I was browsing the law society webby earlier. Dhillion & Ptrs are hiring. So is LYTG and Madhavan.
Alittle tempting. But alot more hesitation.
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Plan to go carrfour after work. I have yet to get the seat cushion and some other stuffs.
But, i got my order of the blueberry tarts today. Have to go home straight after work instead.
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
9 May 2007
Snakie mama is scheduled to have her maternity leave start at 8 Aug.
How am i going to survive???
Can't imagine.
The fellow colleague had the audacity to tell CY that she don't want to do PI cases. Citing reasons of overloading with divorce cases. She's a champion. Seriously, don't like her attitude. When interviewing, it's already made known that she will be handling the PI cases. Else, don't apply lor.
Either, you make the best out of it or to opt out of it. Well, we can't always have the best of both worlds. Still, there can be a choice to be made.
Just like, if you choose to hit the wall, don't complain the pain that acompanied with it.
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This morning papers had an article about people bringing their own cooking oil out for the people to cook the food for them. Purely for the reason of saving one's self. Why? Because apparantly the oil that was used, was of lower grade or inferior quality, in order to save costs. And it was found that the bottle used for storage of the cooking oil was previously used to store industrial oil. Eeeks...
This is what some people will do to earn more $.
Suddenly am so glad to live in this tiny little dot.
How am i going to survive???
Can't imagine.
The fellow colleague had the audacity to tell CY that she don't want to do PI cases. Citing reasons of overloading with divorce cases. She's a champion. Seriously, don't like her attitude. When interviewing, it's already made known that she will be handling the PI cases. Else, don't apply lor.
Either, you make the best out of it or to opt out of it. Well, we can't always have the best of both worlds. Still, there can be a choice to be made.
Just like, if you choose to hit the wall, don't complain the pain that acompanied with it.
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This morning papers had an article about people bringing their own cooking oil out for the people to cook the food for them. Purely for the reason of saving one's self. Why? Because apparantly the oil that was used, was of lower grade or inferior quality, in order to save costs. And it was found that the bottle used for storage of the cooking oil was previously used to store industrial oil. Eeeks...
This is what some people will do to earn more $.
Suddenly am so glad to live in this tiny little dot.
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
marriage vs contract
Marriage is whereby 2 persons are based on love, voluntary actions and willingness to care and share everything from proverty to luxury.
Contract? Is by forced to create that particular action.
Yet what i encounter was...either party controlling each other. As if each own the other.
The above was sparked off by a client's idiotic call. Fact is, we are acting for the wife. An adult. But the husband is making noise and asking all sorts of unreasonable Q. When i enquire about his authority if whether the wife had given consent for him to act for her, he kick a bigger fuss further.
Hello??? Is the wife mentally unsound? Maybe the wife is the indecisive kind. I don't know. But well, there are instances of CONTROLLING spouse. Isn't it?
Contract? Is by forced to create that particular action.
Yet what i encounter was...either party controlling each other. As if each own the other.
The above was sparked off by a client's idiotic call. Fact is, we are acting for the wife. An adult. But the husband is making noise and asking all sorts of unreasonable Q. When i enquire about his authority if whether the wife had given consent for him to act for her, he kick a bigger fuss further.
Hello??? Is the wife mentally unsound? Maybe the wife is the indecisive kind. I don't know. But well, there are instances of CONTROLLING spouse. Isn't it?
lousy day
lost my favourite ring in the cab last night.
stained my sleeves with the perfume oil this morning.
scolded "CB" after putting down the phone earlier.
what can be worse???
stained my sleeves with the perfume oil this morning.
scolded "CB" after putting down the phone earlier.
what can be worse???
Monday, May 07, 2007
complains
i'm mixing perosonal feelings into work.
the 'neighbour' is making me pissed off.
i admit that this is one's working style or habit.
but to the extent to 'throwing' files and staples everytime is fcuking frustrating.
why can't the person just put back nicely without the noise?
it's fcuking irritating to suddenly hear a 'thump thump thump' now and then de lor.
idiot de leh...
the first time i had a decent chat with her on the way home the other time, i know she's the kind who don't listen to people.
subsequently, yah...she's the super gan cheong spider type.
just can't click with her.
i'm beginning to be like someone in the entertaining industry a few years back when she made that comment.
"we are just colleagues"
the 'neighbour' is making me pissed off.
i admit that this is one's working style or habit.
but to the extent to 'throwing' files and staples everytime is fcuking frustrating.
why can't the person just put back nicely without the noise?
it's fcuking irritating to suddenly hear a 'thump thump thump' now and then de lor.
idiot de leh...
the first time i had a decent chat with her on the way home the other time, i know she's the kind who don't listen to people.
subsequently, yah...she's the super gan cheong spider type.
just can't click with her.
i'm beginning to be like someone in the entertaining industry a few years back when she made that comment.
"we are just colleagues"
Friday, May 04, 2007
4 May 2007
My role tonite after work, to be a fillial child.
Haven't been home ages for dinner.
Tonite is the night to make up for it.
I'm such a bad child.
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This morning, i was surprised to received a call which was supposed to be a private no., which is as always like in the past. But today, the no. was showing. Mood dropped drastically when i know who called but when i found out it was none of my business, heaved a sigh of relief. And to further increase my 'happyness', he offered me a great deal.
Only that it's so impossible for me to raise it de lor...
I wanna cry. Imagine the saving i can have. But i can't enjoy that discount.
I'm at my wit's end.
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Alot of commotion this morning.
Not surprisingly, it's about xiong AGAIN.
Asshole boss. Idiotic management.
Then so, why am i still here???
Contradicting.
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Something amusing happened yesterday evening before knocking off time.
I was on the phone with my mother, arranging the dinner, suddenly she said : 'i need a favour'.
'shoot'
" I just bought a 700plus necklace. And i don't want your father to kick a fuss. So i will tell him it's from you as the mother's day gift."
-.-'''
She's amazing.
Where on earth would you find parents who teach their children to lie? Well, mine just did. Lolx...
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B and i are entering into our 8th mth now...
Every month, some how there is bound to be some roller coaster ride. The Ups and downs. The happyness beyonds words and emotions. The infuriating actions nonetheless. The unpredictable temper of mine. *that is subjective of hormonal changes lahh* The touching hearts gesture. The 'careless unthoughtful' moments. The sweetest moments.
But no complains so far. =) *smiles*
And there are so many times that i wish time can be freezed.
Haven't been home ages for dinner.
Tonite is the night to make up for it.
I'm such a bad child.
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This morning, i was surprised to received a call which was supposed to be a private no., which is as always like in the past. But today, the no. was showing. Mood dropped drastically when i know who called but when i found out it was none of my business, heaved a sigh of relief. And to further increase my 'happyness', he offered me a great deal.
Only that it's so impossible for me to raise it de lor...
I wanna cry. Imagine the saving i can have. But i can't enjoy that discount.
I'm at my wit's end.
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Alot of commotion this morning.
Not surprisingly, it's about xiong AGAIN.
Asshole boss. Idiotic management.
Then so, why am i still here???
Contradicting.
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Something amusing happened yesterday evening before knocking off time.
I was on the phone with my mother, arranging the dinner, suddenly she said : 'i need a favour'.
'shoot'
" I just bought a 700plus necklace. And i don't want your father to kick a fuss. So i will tell him it's from you as the mother's day gift."
-.-'''
She's amazing.
Where on earth would you find parents who teach their children to lie? Well, mine just did. Lolx...
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B and i are entering into our 8th mth now...
Every month, some how there is bound to be some roller coaster ride. The Ups and downs. The happyness beyonds words and emotions. The infuriating actions nonetheless. The unpredictable temper of mine. *that is subjective of hormonal changes lahh* The touching hearts gesture. The 'careless unthoughtful' moments. The sweetest moments.
But no complains so far. =) *smiles*
And there are so many times that i wish time can be freezed.
Shoes Month

Pic not taken very well. Cause it was a impromptu decision to snap it.
Was drawn to this pair of yellow pokka dots shoes when i was waiting for des yesterday.
Had arranged to have dinner and of course of his promise of 'lobang'.
But his promise of 'lobang' turns out to erm...well, the link wasn't that direct i would say but nonetheless, gained another new friend lo.
Fancy the shoe quite abit because i never had yellow shoes and the color is really nice.
Only drawback...damn painful lo...my poor toes are being cramped together...me and my big fat ugly feet.
Then when i was tidying my shoes cabinet. I realised the black leather heels is so not durable. It's not possible to wear it anymore. And it's less than half a year old. My resolution? Never never ever to get shoes above 50 bucks again.
And to top my shopping list this saturday, shoes!!!.
Seems like a busy weekend for me...need to go to the bank...get stuffs...and not forgetting plans to tidy some stuffs.
Why do i have so much belongings???
Thursday, May 03, 2007
1912
That is what we have spent on the company dinner.
The drinks and the food costs so much. For 11 pax.
*shake head*
The drinks and the food costs so much. For 11 pax.
*shake head*
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
My Labour Day in 2007
The company dinner was usual. The countless plates of snacks. The lamb chop. The bread & butter. The mini pies. The chicken satay. The vegetarian pizza. The shitake mushrooms. The fried red snapper fillet. The endless last round of drinks.
This time round, it was slightly more fun than usual maybe because xiong's sec is more spontaneous and fun. But considering that she was drunk ...hmmmm...and i can't believe xiong really talks to B on the phone when i dared him to. *faints*...
By 8plus, i needed to catch my sleep already. But because was sharing cab with snakie mama and another colleague, Helen. I have to wait. Till, des heard my 'sos'. Haahaa...he called me shortly after i ended the call with B. He was around the corner, at shenton way. Wanted to have dinner and was looking for some companion. The timing was excellent. Within mins, he was waiting outside Rogue where we were dinner and drinks. And i was excused out. Heehee...i couldn't be more grateful and hence decided to drop the 'lao chek' calling to him, for the nite that is. We headed for a chicken chop dinner at my place's kopitiam, a short chat and home it was.
On the actual labour day, spent the entire day with B at home, B's mum was over at sk too. A simple homecooked lunch and dinner. =) However it was considered great to me. I miss homecooked food.
This time round, it was slightly more fun than usual maybe because xiong's sec is more spontaneous and fun. But considering that she was drunk ...hmmmm...and i can't believe xiong really talks to B on the phone when i dared him to. *faints*...
By 8plus, i needed to catch my sleep already. But because was sharing cab with snakie mama and another colleague, Helen. I have to wait. Till, des heard my 'sos'. Haahaa...he called me shortly after i ended the call with B. He was around the corner, at shenton way. Wanted to have dinner and was looking for some companion. The timing was excellent. Within mins, he was waiting outside Rogue where we were dinner and drinks. And i was excused out. Heehee...i couldn't be more grateful and hence decided to drop the 'lao chek' calling to him, for the nite that is. We headed for a chicken chop dinner at my place's kopitiam, a short chat and home it was.
On the actual labour day, spent the entire day with B at home, B's mum was over at sk too. A simple homecooked lunch and dinner. =) However it was considered great to me. I miss homecooked food.
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