Pre Labour Day Mood

Not in the mood for work at all.

Holiday mood?

Was checking out the DBS and Maybank webby just now.

Deciding which bank to open my 2nd account.

Opting for DBS instead.

Why?

Because there is one at compass point.

But ... but ...

Maybank is just round the corner from my office?

Anyway, DBS it shall be.

Later the office is closing earlier than usual.

Well, it's just half an hr or slightly more than half an hr earlier.

To have dinner and drink @ Rogues. Again.

Praying hard and crossing my fingers here that it will end early.

The gals going back early and leaving the guys to have their drinks and nonsense.

That should be the way.

Besides deciding which bank to have my second account with.

I was also thinking about the insurance company.

Currently am using the services of AIA.

But thinking of engaging the Prus too.

And in the end, sticking with the AIA bah.

Oh well.

Oh ya.

There was something which i wanna complained about.

An incident which happened at the clinic.

Felt disgusted and 'bu shuang'.

When we reached the clinic.

The no. inside the room was no. 8.

We were no. 9

Came an uncle who is no. 10.

He was crossing his arms and moaning.

"It's unbearable"

But otherwise, i see nothing.

Not that he had actions of vomitting or whatsoever.

Then wife who sat besides us, asked our Q no.

And then asking if we can switch.

I keep mum.

B simply said, "ask the nurse"

The dumb dumb nurse without asking BOTH patients what they are feeling umcomfy about.

Made the swop.

Then another nurse came and asked why the swop and proceed to ask 'Mr Leong, you agree'?

B simply nod.

He was having fluctuating high fever.

The point is.

The one inside the room is no. 8.

We are no. 9.

They are no. 10.

Is there a difference?

Not as if there are 2 nos. in between lor.

Such an typical S people.

The "ME FIRST" attitude.

I hate that.

Secondly, what ever happen to the professionalism of the nurses???

It is by rule of the 'first come first serve basis'.

Of course, exceptions given to the urgency ones.

But without assessing the situation is absurd.

I can remember once i went to the clinic near my house.

I was like no. 11.

There was this guy who is no. 9.

And there were a couple of other people as well.

Total of like 4-5 patients in waiting.

Then came this woman holding her tummy and crying in pain.

To the extent of lying down on the seats rather than in sitting position.

Then, the sister asked she can have the pirority of seeing the doctor first.

The nurse then asked the woman what happen.

She said she had been vomitting profusely.

Then the nurse asked the no. 8 guy how unwell he is and if he is ok.

The guy who looked ok, agreed.

I do have a reason to be pissed with, do i?

Pre Labour Day Mood

Not in the mood for work at all.

Holiday mood?

Was checking out the DBS and Maybank webby just now.

Deciding which bank to open my 2nd account.

Opting for DBS instead.

Why?

Because there is one at compass point.

But ... but ...

Maybank is just round the corner from my office?

Anyway, DBS it shall be.

Later the office is closing earlier than usual.

Well, it's just half an hr or slightly more than half an hr earlier.

To have dinner and drink @ Rogues. Again.

Praying hard and crossing my fingers here that it will end early.

The gals going back early and leaving the guys to have their drinks and nonsense.

That should be the way.

Besides deciding which bank to have my second account with.

I was also thinking about the insurance company.

Currently am using the services of AIA.

But thinking of engaging the Prus too.

And in the end, sticking with the AIA bah.

Oh well.

Oh ya.

There was something which i wanna complained about.

An incident which happened at the clinic.

Felt disgusted and 'bu shuang'.

When we reached the clinic.

The no. inside the room was no. 8.

We were no. 9

Came an uncle who is no. 10.

He was crossing his arms and moaning.

"It's unbearable"

But otherwise, i see nothing.

Not that he had actions of vomitting or whatsoever.

Then wife who sat besides us, asked our Q no.

And then asking if we can switch.

I keep mum.

B simply said, "ask the nurse"

The dumb dumb nurse without asking BOTH patients what they are feeling umcomfy about.

Made the swop.

Then another nurse came and asked why the swop and proceed to ask 'Mr Leong, you agree'?

B simply nod.

He was having fluctuating high fever.

The point is.

The one inside the room is no. 8.

We are no. 9.

They are no. 10.

Is there a difference?

Not as if there are 2 nos. in between lor.

Such an typical S people.

The "ME FIRST" attitude.

I hate that.

Secondly, what ever happen to the professionalism of the nurses???

It is by rule of the 'first come first serve basis'.

Of course, exceptions given to the urgency ones.

But without assessing the situation is absurd.

I can remember once i went to the clinic near my house.

I was like no. 11.

There was this guy who is no. 9.

And there were a couple of other people as well.

Total of like 4-5 patients in waiting.

Then came this woman holding her tummy and crying in pain.

To the extent of lying down on the seats rather than in sitting position.

Then, the sister asked she can have the pirority of seeing the doctor first.

The nurse then asked the woman what happen.

She said she had been vomitting profusely.

Then the nurse asked the no. 8 guy how unwell he is and if he is ok.

The guy who looked ok, agreed.

I do have a reason to be pissed with, do i?

30 April 2007

-Friday-

Worked OT. Was not happy at all. It was like slow pace for the past few days and when it's finally friday, i had to stay late. Could have probably headed out with Jo and Paul but couldn't. And so arrangement was made to head out for movie instead the next day.

And why must there be so much activites when i'm not knocking off on time???
Firstly, ay asked me if i wanna head for a drink after work.
Then Jo asked what plans i have after work.
Subsequently, Junie called me that she and her pig are heading to Cushion and Cues.
Finally, Des trying to convince me to head to ktv with him.
*duh...*
Sigh...

Was damn hungry when finally out of the office and don't know whether i should be grateful to des. It was like, asked him if he wanna have dinner before him meeting the guys for ktv, he said ok. But actually he had his dinner already. He made the effort in driving out to meet me for dinner then sent me home. There is no obligations to speak of in the first place. It was ok that if he had his dinner. I could have brought dinner home on the way. It's no problem anyway. Yet he make if sound like he ought to do so since i asked him. *question marks in head*

And at night, B confessed to me that he had felt ill hours earlier but taken medicine already. *sometimes really worries much for him...his attacks of fever and flu etc are more frequent than i am...i need to think of something...

-Saturday-

A very worrying day. It frightens me so. B's fever came again in early morning. The medicine had seemingly brought the fever down, and so we both thought it was ok not to go to polyclinic. But unexpectedly in the noon, the fever came back again. Striked at a time when the ployclinic and most of the private clinics are closed. The fever was high. At 39.2, it was terrifying for me. B opted for sponging and took the 2nd dosage of panadol. An hour later, the temperature dropped. Only to come back haunting again in late noon. Choices left are the 24hrs clinics and the hospital. Left with little knowledge at which 24hrs clinic to go, and didn't wanna travel far to the hospitals, i brought B to the 24hrs clinic which i had went to before. Luckily, the clinic was still operating. Because the last time i went there was more than 5 yrs ago de lor. B was given a jab, which finally helped to bring down the fever. It is believed to be a grandular infection. Some virus infection whereby the antibiotics will be redundant.

Movie outing had to be cancelled. No way B can out in such a state. Poor B, had to be sick on his off day.

But was really glad that at the end of the day, B was much better.

-Sunday-

B was back to work after a sick day yesterday. And me? Headed back home to do what i needed to do. Days not at home. Much clothes needed to be washed, ironed and keep properly. Chores needed to be done.

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The opposite of Professionalism?

Erm...Professionalism means not bringing personal links into work...

Not letting personal issues to affect the work performance.

Then, what is the term for the opposite?

As is, not letting work issues affecting one's personal life?

Not letting work stress bothering one's personal life?

Is there such a term?...

The Full Story

Finished the short story featured in the RD last night while waiting for B to knock off.

The summary of it:

The victim, who was a great husband and a good father figure to the children, had lost his precious life while telling the un-supervised kids 'it's time to head home'. It was a wild party of about hundreds of teenages of age not more than 20 years each. Alcohol and drugs were on the menu. Having fun is an understatement.

However, due to the influence of alcohol and drugs,the kids barely know what they were doing. When interferred by an stranger, disrupting them, all they ever know was to get the stranger out of the house. When words and sentences don't make sense. Actions do. Punches and kicks were thrown in. That few punches and kicks, at the vital area were fatal. A man's life was lost. A loving husband was gone. A caring father was gone. A great friend was gone. A good colleague was gone.

And the wife, the mother however, seeks not anger, retribution nor hatred for the culprit. Instead, she went on a journey to seek a gift. A gift that will help not only herself, but the family, the culprit as well as the public.

It was a long journey of piecing her most beloved husband's life together, showing to the public the wonderful life of his before the tragic incident. And the struggles to show the unfortunate incident that took his life away.
She sees a need to educate the public, not reprimanding nor scolding them. But sharing and making them to understand from within. The reckless actions resulted from irresponsible acts. When allowing oneself to be out of control. It danger that lurks. Imagine waking up in the morning with a stranger besides, imagine being a passenger of a driver who is drunk, imagine getting incurable diseases from the umprotected sex or consumption of drugs through syringes. Numerous possibilities. It's not difficult to commit a foolish act nor a crime. It's not that difficult to be inside a jail. What's difficult is the guilt that will stay inside till you are gone from this world.

And what beyond my imagination was that, the wife told the boy whose punches and kicks took his life away that he must HAVE what he had taken from her husband. That was ' a happy and productive life'.

This will be one of my favourite short articles. The boy is still serving his sentence. Thoroughly remorseful and guilty of his act, he began to embark on a journey together with the man's wife. To help others. To educate others.
It's really amazing how one's moment of foolish act can lead to. A moment of enjoyment and pure fun can lead to a irreversible action the very next second.
How many of us are so fully aware of our surroundings, our behaviour and responsibilities?
Everyone wants to be free. And the price of the so-called freedom? ...

forgive & forgiven

Got myself a copy of the Reader's Digest and National Geographic at the newspapers stand yesterday while on the way to mrt station back home.

Now i'm halfway through an article about a family whose lives are torn apart from a result of a 'spur-of-a-moment' action, reckless? manice?

It was about this man who on the favour of his neighbour to check upon his son who was all alone in the house while he's away. The man was unlucky enough to find the house full of rowdy and partying people who were high on alcohol. The ending was that the man was being beaten to death. And the guilty one is a mere teenage.

Yet the wife whose life was turned 180 degree overnight, wanted to forgive the culprit.


To forgive and forget. It's not easy isn't it?

I used to have this thinking that people who do evil will pay for their evil. As the karma goes.
And the people affected, the victims will just ignore and let time cover the traces. To forgive? To not to think about it it's more likely. The hatred will always be there. Isn't it so?

Yet the article touches me in the sense that, the reasoning behind the forgiveness was, a man's life has been gone. Why the need to remove another life that will have the potential to make good of it?
That man has lost the chance to make things happen. Why deprived of another man's chance?

Worth thinking...

There was another article which says about our posture. It seems like the usual sitting position we have isn't that good at all. The 90 degrees position is now said to be bad for us because of the gravity pressure on the lower spinal cord...the bones are kinda like being forced to compressed together which is no good. Now they are saying the best position is about 135 degrees. Then, in order to reduce the pressure for those who have no choice but to sit during course of work, it's to have a position whereby the hip bones must be on a higher ground than the knee bones.

Sigh...oki...noted...

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It's a rather slow day today. Yesterday too...Now i'm hoping and wishing that ay will bring in new cases tomorrow. And i mean caseS. Not one.

It's been a while since i have activities after work. The last was a simple dinner at Maxwell market with Jo and deardear. Hmmmm, counted mah? Coz it was not de 'planned already' type mah...Those impromptu ones shouldn't be counted.
So counting those planned ahead ones, it's really been quite some time.
Tonight, my role is to be a light bulb. Yupz...haha...a light bulb to Junie darling and her Bryan, to a steamboat dinner @ bugis. Too bad deardear is working a afternoon shift.

Surprise after Surprise

Finally not much OT lately...*crossing my fingers here in case later ay is back with more new cases...
Didn't stay late yesterday and didn't wanna call des after work as said i will coz just feel like heading home, have dinner and med and go to bed.

I am so glad i did not change my plan. For shortly after my bath, B gave me an extremely pleasant surprise.
=) He showed up at my doorstep when i least expect him to. *on cloud nine*

Missed calls during showering.(From B and des) Returned call to B, no one picks up. Within mins he called back.
B: What ya doin
Ger: Drying my hair lo...
B: Miss me?
Ger: Don't want to miss liao.
B: y le? then gerger counting down 3 days hor.
Ger: can understand u busy but u never say busy with what. work? stuff? never explain fully. how i understand wor. ask u, u always say will say out if u wanna say, ask also no use. *bleh*
B: dan miss me?
Ger: y ask when u know the ans.
B: but wan u to say mah...
Ger: gerger miss deardear.
B: close ur eyes...dan imagine i'm just besides u.
Ger: y can't u say what u really busy with? don't wanna close eye.
B: gerger open door?
Ger:*stunned*

This has got to be one of the best surprise that B has given.

And dumb dumb des gota play hide and seek with me. Didn't pick up my call when i return. Then he chose to call back when i was on the phone with B. Finally he ans my call, he actually date B out on saturday. *grrr...* he better not forgets my lobang!..haahaa..

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Came across this somewhere...
Professionalism = not involving personal feelings into work

oki..i'll try...

shopping list for the weekend

I just realised i have a list of stuffs to get. And i'm telling myself that i will shop for it this weekend, that is, provided i manage to wake up in time and head out of the house.

Given my past records...it's easy ... easy for me to just laze around at home, that is.
Last saturday i woke at 12plus, but knock out within mins and woking up at 6plus.
On sunday, although i woke up at 8-9plus...but i went for a nap again around 1plus and waking up at 4 plus.
Heehee...

Oki...i swear i will get my butt out of the hse!!!

Things i need to get:
1. my belt!!!
2. cushion for my chair in the office
3. compact powder
4. liquid foundation
5. mascara
6. toner
7. sling bag
8. Slippers (For office)


Actually some of the stuffs i can get it after work...just plain lazy and tiredness...

Pleasant Surprise On 20.04.2007

I had decided to drop by at B's workplace after work since knowing that he won't have much time for me during the weekend and especially that he will be at tanglin and not at sk.
While waiting for him at the usual smoking place and keeping a lookout for him, B gave me shock and surprised me greatly...=) *smiles*
And till today, it's been 3 days already, the 'beating little botak' joke is still very fresh in my mind.
Just hope that people around me don't think i'm crazy smiling to myself while typing. Oki, i admit i'm not tying any serious document here...heehee...

Dizzy Spelling Days

Something lift up my 'sick' day this morning...imagine a person who is fainting, feeling tightness in chest and barely has any energy left to do anything at all...really anything...even find it a chore to head to the pantry to fill up the water bottle but suddenly there will be an outburst of laughter from within...

*my dear jo, i really take my hat off you lahh...buay tahan...haahaaa...to think i still thought what could it be? *bleh....=p... u bluff me lahh...what kind of entry is that ??? lolx...

Why not like this lah...maybe u acompany me go for the touch up first dan decide if its painful? haha..dan we can do the tattoo together since i'm getting a third one...heee...

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Sigh...alittle sianz here...remember on last fri morning, after a mere 5mins of sweeping B's rm, i was dizzy the moment i stood up. Then on saturday while i was SITTING down ironing my clothes, the dizzy spell came again when i stood up. Third attack was this morning while i was on my usual routine, taking a puffy before heading up to work, i felt fainting again. Luckily mama snakie pass by in nick of time and she acompanied me to sit down for a while at the cafe before heading to office. duh....

B said it's low blood pressure wor...=( already medical report stated i'm suggestive of thalassesia liao mah...already not enough oxygen liao lahh...still low pressure...piang!!!*angry*

Don't know if it's a sign to warn me further to quit cig...well...i have been smoking slightly lesser liao arh...

Just see how bah...

Weekend is over just like that...time was spent on TV!!!
Catching up on the duno what chamber love drama, plus the korean drama, the one showing at 1030 on sun nite de. Lolx...damn funny...seeing how zhexiu (young guy @ 24yrs old) trying to wreck damage between Bingxi-his love (a 33yrs old almost auntie figure) and her potential husband (a urologist!!!)...it's hilarious de lo...and then how the younger sis got involved with a guy who is 17yrs older...making pranks on him such as setting fire to his house which is worth billions de!!!...haha...really hope that the drama will end that zhexiu with bingxi and the younger sis, junxi with the 'uncle'...because that's what is was meant to be right? The true love between the couples even though the age gap was a huge hindering factor. But true love can overcome any factors what, esp in dramas.

i'm addicted to this drama...

Okie...enough of couch potato...

Finally it's Friday

Towards the end of the week, load has began to lighten. Probably one of the most contributing reason is that xiong is not in the office. And also the previous OTs has helped to ease the load.

Actually i had wanted to have entries as often as i can. The intial intention of the blog is to jot down whatever memories i had so that i can remember. Whatever random thoughts that come into my mind to be recorded. But all those were slowly buried under the workload. Till Jo reminded me with her reason of blogging which coincides with mine. "Short term memory"...

Sigh...

Anyway, had a good lunch earlier. The bunch of gals decided to call for pizza since xiong is not around and that the extra room will no longer be extra from the start of next month as the new lawyer is coming. We all shan't have any places to lunch in from next month onwards. Then i ask snakie why didn't include the other half good boss for lunch. Actually, my idea was as a boss, he usually won't say no to our invitations unless he had appointment fixed with client already. For that, i was betting on my luck that he didn't have appointment fixed. Then as a boss again, surely he would pay for the lunch and not ask from us right? Lolx...*victory sign*
And so i save the gal's purses. haahaa...

19 April 2007

Have been a little clueless at what to write lately.
Lots of thoughts running through and just couldn't get the right words and sentences down.

Relationships? Happy. Glad. Appreciate. Adore. Love.
He's the kind who will prompt you into thinking of what he has done and appreciate his efforts and actions and not to be taken for granted. Not he's without flaws.
At the same time, he has unintentionally shown actions of neglecting. No one is perfect.

I can say he's the kind of guy who won't simply let matter rest without an answer and use time to cover the traces but to dicuss and solve and repair.

I'm a happy little pig.

Friends? Trying to catch up here and there. Recently a couple of meet ups with des. Junie darling says will meet up once her exams finished. Chicky preparing for her exams too. Hmmm..exams here and there...

Work? Things are pretty stablising. Praying hard that i can really get the cases!!!

Recent developments? Nothing much in particular. hmmm...hanging out with frds...dinner...cuppa...

Starting to shop for a new tattoo since Jo says she's gona to have one on the back of her neck...will go with her and get my little dragon some touching up and see when i can have the third one.

I'm excited once more. Hee...

Personal? Still recovering from the minor trauma of the surgery. Oki..it is no big deal but really really squeamish at the thought lo...

Have complains? Not really...i'm contented lately.

18 April 2007

gossips kill...
gossips blind...
gossips hide...
gossips destroy...

there are times where seeing and hearing may not proved to be actual fact...
there are many people who still believe in seeing and hearing at the point of moment...believing in surface and not probing into what's truly underneath...

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work is really much lately...
some changes here and there...
trying to get myself used to the 'new' environment...

prayin hard that des can really get me what i want...the 'lobangs'...
the 'siao tah bor'...crazy fella...always gettin in squabbles with me...
but am glad that he brought me to the loyang temple to pray the other night...

another short chat in the journey home that nite prompts me into some deep thinking...
it's pretty amazing to me that he hadn't forgotten or simply can't recall what happened last time when we were young, foolish n naive...our very firsts times...now we have all simply grow up...

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Due to the work stress...plus the recent surgery...seems like the temperamental has taken another step up...but B although reaching his saturation point is still enduring and showing me how strong his patience is...now i'm so ashamed...he hadn't ask much from me...and the least i can do...is to be less agitated...i'm turning into someone i hate!!! what is happening???

not again...

One of 'those' times again...
In state of confusion and depression...

Contents of the chat with des the other day are still digesting inside me...
It's like, i'm not doing what i'm enjoying...it's just work...just what i have been doing since don't know when...
And i know i need a rice bowl...
If i were to charge myself towards my dreams...it will meant leaving behind everyone and everything...
Out of the comfort zone...
I don't know...
Maybe i might just grow old with this company...

At the same time, i'm contented with what i have now...peaceful...

Well...

Another matter troubling...made me had difficulty in sleeping well...eyes watery...
Trying to calm myself and take things easy...
I do need the 'me-alone' time i suppose.
The more i'm falling into the affections the more hatred i have for myself...

I have the securities no more...

From 30 Mar till 10 Apr

Been disappear for quite some time.
So much to update.
It's like now then i have the chance to come in.

Been 'busy' through out...

First it was the surgery which kept me at home for days...
My first ever painful ordeal...Though only 2 stitches...but...it's really pain beyond words...
Plus the fact that i have to go back every day for checkup doesn't help to ease my pain...it aggravates it...
Of course, not forgetting that i was practically 'ROBBED' at each checkup. =(
Through out the mc days, it was a routine of checkup, tv, makan n bed...sigh...
The only plus plus plus points which happened was that B planted a surprise attack on me on one of the checkup days. Thought that he was at work. But while i was waiting for my turn, he turned up and acompany me. (This is the second nice surprise that he had presented since the first time that he suddenly turned up at raffles to pick me up from work.)

Then it's back to work...lotsa stuff to clear...OT for the past few days...but not today...pig needs sleep...

Had managed to meet up with a dear friend too...gosh, the last time i saw him? was when he was 'booted' out by the Principal in sec 3. This is like what? 13-14 years of separation?

First meet after the long separation was at Liquid kitchen. Hmmm...to be exact it's at his hse's downstr.
Francis came to fetch me from home dan we went to wait for him to get dress and be pretty.

Then the 3 of us headed to LK for some snacks and catching up. Such a nice feeling in seeing them again.

The second outing was when i sloughed myself at work till late and then we made arrangements to have dinner and followed by a chilling out session which he shared so much of his experiences with me. Boy was i astonished to listen to his life story of 27 years. Not a very long time, but considering the things he had went through...i feel proud to have him as my friend. =)

All i can say is that...definitely nothing is impossible...it's all in the mind and determination...