what a surprise!

Scary huh... Well, this was B's looks on the nite of Halloween's partying.

Got a terrifying scare out of it. Hey!!! Not that i was timid but when you were awaken at 4plus in the morning and come face to face with such a ghastly look, *faint faint faint*!!!

Seconds later when i realised it ain't any ghost or any stranger... (hahaha took me awhile to recognize my dear), i burst out in laughter which lasted almost 5mins.

But what took place later was a torture for my poor dear. The removal of the makeup from his head and face was not only tedious but an extremely painful ordeal for him. Thankfully it's over and done with. Hope that he learnt his lesson well. Be prepared with the right tools to remove the stubborn paint next time.

After the scare, B made up for it by bringing me to a 'special' place. Heehee.. actually its a very very common place but i was very happy. The splendid view in front of us and B with me.

=) *all smiles* Plus a few touching actions which B did for me. Heehee...

Oh... and it's the first time that B had ever keep me acompany for more than 24 hours. =p

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My previous entry sounds alittle absurd. How to define privacy when it is obviously 'public'??? Lolx... The 'heat' definitely has gotten me.

Met up with chicky last evening, chatted alittle about her "Nepal's trip". I'm tempted, no doubt but i just can't fork out the time. =(

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I have been typing and erasing my sentences for the past 5 minutes. Just what the hell am i doing???!!!

Is it because of the missing of booze drowning? Or is it because i have not been engaging in any girly gossiping sessions. Hmm.... Can't be the latter because i have just met up with my Crabby last weekend and i'm gona to meet up with her later for dinner.

Booze then??? Erm... I hope not. It wasn't that tough to stay away from alcohol.

My shopping therapy? Well, i'm just back from a shopping holiday (Bangkok).

Let me think... what is terribly wrong right now... argh!!!

What have i not been doing, esp the stuffs which i enjoy greatly.

Maybe, it's simply because i have lots of stuff wanting to pen down but i couldn't find a more subtle way of putting it, and if i type down as what i think, it will infuriate some who may chance upon it, and thus the frustrations now.

Define privacy...

Define freedom of speech...

For the better?

Two awful things happened on monday night. Or should i say unfortunate? Can't think of any other words at the moment, because of the same ol excuse, 'tired'. B had lost his mobile AGAIN, he was wearing the very same berms when he had first lost it. Twice, he was with me and i was the last to leave the cab. If only i had been more careful, if only i had taken a second look. Ya ya.. me and my 'if only'. Though B didn't appear blame me, in fact, he said nothing or did nothing to show any it was my fault. Still, i felt bad over it.

And secondly, knowing that he is now mobile-less, it's gona be more 'challenging' for me to reach him. Parted with him yesterday noon, i was thinking, it's gona to take days for me to hear from him. But... =) B surprised me last night after his work. Heehee... at least something to lift my mood.

The very same night B lost his mobile, Ryan, Paul had gotten themselves in a fight and as a result Ryan had to be sent to the hospital for excessing bleeding or so i heard. Geez.... what's with them? Violence ain't the solution mah... Anyway, main point is now they are ok liao.

Yesterday because of the mobile incident which affected me greatly, i sought 'Peter's company. After chatting with him, felt better and our conversation prompt me to think further into the relationship i'm having right now with B.

I'm not denying that i don't feel secure in this relationship, only that, time is such a luxury for him right now. Without time, how am i going to voice out to him about my fears? Yet at the same time, i felt that there isn't a need for him to know about my insecurities because it's just me 'thinking too much'. Besides, we are still very much in the initial stage of being together. Most importantly is i do feel that he is doing his best to be with me whenever he can. A lot of initiatives now as compared to before and that is a good sign. =) It's still back to the 'let nature takes it's course'.

Pain

My hand is having a relaspe and i'm so handicapped with the pain hindering my work. What's best is i don't even know how i got my hand hurt in the first place and this is the 3rd time my hand is hurting so much.

The PiggyBack Ride

On friday night, my 'old friend' came back to look for me. Just a mere small glass of tiger and that was it. I couldn't enjoy the night or should i say i hadn't had the idea of enjoying it because B had kind of made me angry earlier on. I didn't even wanna to join them at xmyd but the will of my heart wins over the will of my mind.

But his gesture soon covers his fault. He gave me a piggyback ride when i couldn't even stand straight. Well, many would argue that is the least that he can do for me but he piggyback me not once but twice.

Honestly, i wish my mood would not be influenced by him so easily. His actions can simply manipulate me so.

And he is a ???

A man with foggy clouds over him. He is sensitive and easily hurt and always feels lonely. He does not trust anyone but himself. Sounding so negative but he has an amazingly charisma. He is a compassionate man. He absorbs other people sentimental feeling and pain. He is a good psychiatrist and he could understand complex and confused feelings. He has a hidden power that he could use it to make thngs happen and do things well. He does not like people who never try to help themselves before asking other people for favours. He is the type of guy who mostly achieved his goal in life. Once he sets his mind for something, he will put all his energy and efforts in it, whether or not it is a small matter or a big project. One of the most success man in all the zodiac.

He is a very patient man and can waits for years to reach his goal. He hates thin feeling and weak determinations. He can not retreat or rest for long, for he thinks life has more questions and more answers to be searched.

If he is in love, you will get plenty from him, sometimes maybe too much than you have asked for. He is serious about love and relationship and will not waste time with someone he does not love whether how pretty she is.

He hardly makes mistakes. He could tell if ou have any bad thoughts, and will not hesitate to tell you so. If you do not like straight forward sincere man, then pack your bag now. If you are an over sensitive person, try not to ask for his comments. He will tell you the truth, even you might not be able to take it. For example, if you ask him if you are fat (and you are fat), he will says "yes, as big as a balloon". He makes such comments because he cares for you, so do something about your weight and do not get upset with him.

If he says "you look pretty today", you can proud because he will not say such thing just to please you if he does not really mean it. There will be both kind of people, those who like him and those who hate him. If you are in love with this guy, be strong and believe your decision, do not be vulnerable. He remembers all his anger and will wait for his pay back time.

He is very serious about your promise, do not promise something you could not keep. He loves his friends and will do anything for hsi close friends. He likes you to take care of him, but not in front of his friends. He is a complex man and you will never understand what he means if you do not really know him. He is happy to know he is a complex figure. When he is thinking or when he needs his privacy, you should give him some space.

He memorise everything well. You may say something that you already forgotten, but he will remember every words. He wants to be respected and admired and at the same time he does not like people to have power over him.

When he falls in love, he really falls deep. A man in this zodiac once in love, he will be sweeter then sugar. He does not like plain and simple woman. A complex woman's mind is his venture. Always be interesting and able to talk to him about every things in any subjects. He does not like his woman who sits around waiting for his call.

Updates

Didn't write much lately, especially as compared to last time i have lesser nonsense to jot down now.
Or should i say it's the lazy bones in me. Either that or i'm so so occupied with my work that i don't have the time for it. But i have always believed in is how you manage your time, whether or not you have the time depends on whether or not you want to do it. If you have the heart to do so certain things, there's definitely time for it, if you don't, you will find things to be busy with to push aside it. Agree?

I have just been back from Bangkok, the much awaited company trip as promised. Overall, it was a so-so experience. Reason behind? Ain't enough time to shop around, ain't getting enoguh freedom to venture around alone, ain't really spending alot of time with the colleagues, as in all the colleagues, hey, it's supposed to be a bonding time for all mah, else we should jolly well head out for trips individually. Why the hassle for this trip? Sigh...

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Then B broke the news to me, that he's no longer working at the same place. A week after he had transferred then he told me about it. Hmpf!!! I could have questioned him about the delay of notice but i didn't. Don't ask me why... I don't know too. Not that i don't place him important. He is important, yet at the same time, it's just not me to mind too much. Both of has been single for a long long time, it does take time to get adjusted to having someone besides.
Certain values he deem is not important but i do and i just have to compromise with it. Just like i know he has been compromising me in other ways which i may have taken for granted.
And right now, considering the stress he faced at work, all the more i shouldn't disturb him with affair of the heart.
What a timing huh... when things are progressing well, came this transfer of workplace which demands so much of his time and energy. =(

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Now back to work from holiday, it's the rush again. Lotsa files to update, lotsa summons to issue, lotsa status to send, lotsa files to close, lastly but not the least, have to put up with lotsa nonsense.

Is it time to change environment liao???

16 October 2006

Sunday was spent at Vivo city, shopping for snakie's much belated birthday gift and having a drink at ICB with M and B.

Just a mere four days away from Singapore and alot happened. Poor crabby lost her handphone and quarrelled with her colleagues and down with flu.

B lost so much weight due to his work. Must think of ways to help him gain back the mass, else i'll be hugging skeleton le.

And M? Well, not exactly surprising that it happened but guess i was hoping too much for it not to happen.

Alittle brain dead here and extremely sleepy... slept at 4plus last night. Haven't been staying up late for a long long time.

cherish

This morning while i was in the mrt, the article of the mishap at Perth caught my eye. The raging storm that claimed the Singaporeans lives during their fishing trip. Last week, when i came upon the news, i was stoned for awhile because i have a frd working in Perth. He and our mutual frd, are avid fisher. They love fishing too much. No doubt Perth is big but it's still a small world out there. Though thank goodness it wasn't any of my frds but can't help feeling sad for the lost of others' loved ones. As the wife puts it, he had fulfilled his words to her, loving her and taking good care of her and the family. Only now, he's gone.

We ought to cherish the people around us for we never never know what will happen next.

But before we learnt to cherish, should we ought to learn how to forgive first?

Like, to forgive the person who did us wrong? To forgive the person who made us angry? Sometimes, the very people who made us pissed off can very be the dearest person next to us. What if we never have the chance to say, i forgive u?

Unforgettable Date

On friday night, though it was hazy, though the movie shown wasn't considered romantic kind, but the presence of B and the idea/setting of the date make up for it. B had brought me to the outdoor showing of Tokyo Drift at Padang. It was my first such date. Apart from the haze, i would say it was one of my most loved date. Nothing fanciful, just B and me. There's no need of posh settings to impress. The most important is the person sitting next to you.

I'm going to miss B lots when i'm heading to Bangkok later this week.

He thanked me for acompanying him during the past weekend even though he was dead tired, i felt otherwise. It's more like he's the one acompanying me. =)

Back from MC

I'm back to work today after resting for a day. But a day's rest definitely not enough. I'm still feeling very tired, body aching and head spinning. Though the flu is disappearing but the cough is still very stubborn. And my fever is knocking on the doors every now and then. Haiz... why isn't the paracetomol doing it's job?!!

Past few days hasn't been smooth for me. A 'quarrel' with B. Though the issue has been settled but it has left a scar within me. To understand the issue, one must link it with the story of the 'Lang Lai Le de Gu Shi'. My apologies for not remembering the english title. I don't know if i can believe him anymore.It would be like, 'I want to believe', but the past incident has made me into trying my best to convince myself not to give 100% trust into what he said. All this will result me into contradicting myself and ending up in misery. Though, it was not a big issue that he bluffed me. It really wasn't big. Only that, why bluff me for such a trival matter???

Anyway, it's done and over with. Fresh start???

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Crabby dear, thank you for coming over last evening and acompany me. Really appreciated it. =)

sick

boring boring boring boring boring...

Monday- throat itch, cough
Tuesday-Cough and nose starting to run
Today-Cough still persistent and nose running worse

And exactly a week from now, i'm heading to Bangkok.

=S

the day?

B made me a happy person on saturday. The window shopping at Compass Point and the msg after his frd's wedding dinner. Something which caught me unexpectedly. =)

But somehow i'm still alittle lost. I told crabby and snakie the scenario and both said it's the start. But why am i still feeling weird weird de...