Life

Life is precious. But how should one react when faced with illness. As in terminal illness.

Life is fragile. It can without any warning just collaspe like that.

We often take things for granted. Especially lives. We have forgotten to take good care of ourselves just to show the appreciation of being able to breathe in this world at this very moment.

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I was watching Healing Hand III last night when this sentence came out. "Inter-dependent relationship can sometimes be the motivation of life for each other"

There was this mother who was diagnosed with cancer and yet she had to take care of her bedridden son. The will and courage to live on for the sake of her son had miraculously let her survive and without the cancer turning for the worse. This is the type of dependency that provides the motivation to live on.

I was touched.

It is said that courage and commitment comes hand in hand together.

When you want to commit, the courage will flow out naturally.
But if you only have the courage and not wanting to commit, the courage will ceased slowly.
Wanting to commit, and the courage will rise with it.

Disappointed

im here to rant.
im super angry.
i treat u as my sis.
i tired my best to guide u.
to console u.
lend u a helping hand when u needed most.
shelter u.
advice u.

but what have u done?
help was there when u asked.
but u reject.
why ask then?
ppl around u trying to pull u together.
the more help offered. the more shattering u are.

nobody else can help u unless u are willing to accept.

u wan to deteroriate urself further?
go ahead.

u wan ppl to pity u?
there won't b.

im sorry to say, im leaving u to die.

i don't wish to be involved anymore.

i know too much things already.

its like, 'what the fcuk u guys want?

one is turning back. yet the other is becoming unreasonable and yet in return want the other to accept ur unreasonability.
why can't u 2 just talk over it peacefully?
why can't u guys just learnt?
think and understand from each other's position.

knowing one's flaws yet unwilling to change then don't blame the other person for the misfortune.

nobody can ruin u unless u want to be ruined.

do not blame other people for one's mistake.

do not do unto others what u not wish for.

if u wana hate me. by all means.

fact remains, im leaving.

if u can wake up from this, i will be really really happy for u.

i pray and wish that the best will come out of it.

28 August 2006

Let me recall what had happened since thursday...

Thursday - Nothing unusual... work as normal than head to movie date with Roy, Tianwen & Yinz. Caught the Ghost Game and afterwhich coffee session at CAN.

Friday - Finally went to let the doctor to see me. Guess i'm quite a trouble to the doctor for i refused antibiotics, lozenges and cough syrup for my illness. I only accepted the anti-inflammatory pills and the eye wash. Then i had a message which make my day. A surprise remembrance of something i was looking for. Thank you. Evening was at CAN again before heading to JB. All five of us, Roy, Tianwen, Yinz, Mich and me. Lok Lok for supper and dvd shopping. The night ended with prata at Jalan Kayu.

Saturday - Whole day was spent sleeping to recuperate from the lost of sleep on Thursday and Friday night. Then off to meet Junie, Junie's Pig, Botak and Wendi to the new pub, called White Bar. Boss of the pub, Bryan, ex colleague of Weisong, happens to be friend of Pig and Botak. What a small world.




And that's Weisong. Pic taken at Shin8 sometime ago.

Sunday - Watched Bleach and phone chatting with Wendi and Junie.

Well, just another one of those weekends.

23 August 2006

Hooray, i'm losing my voice. All thanks to just one piece of chicken wing at Ice Cold last night. =s

First before National Day cough and fever, then before the last weekend, thought i was almost on the journey of recovery, then suddenly eye kena 'bumps' and swell. As of this morning, the swell has reduced dan my voice is losing. Sob sob sob...

I missed the outing last night to JB for seafood dinner and in return i gained an answer and lost my voice. How i wish i can split myself last night. It wasn't easy for me to convince my bros to head to JB for makan. Finally they agreed but i had to set them pigeon. Well, for the least, i have an answer now.

Tonight must 'guai guai' head home to rest. I need plenty of sleep. haha.. or should i say i wanna finish the Bleach. =p anyway, tonight ain't a good night to hang out late. Last night of the first month and start of the second month. scary..

The Mountain Story

A son and his father were walking on themountains.

Suddenly, his son falls, hurts himself and screams: " AAAhhhhhhhhhhh !!!"

To his surprise, he hears the voice repeating, somewhere in the mountain:" AAAhhhhhhhhhhh !!!"

Curious, he yells: " Who are you ?" He receives the answer: " Who are you ?"

Angered at the response, he screams: " Coward!" He receives the answer: " Coward!"

He looks to his father and asks: " What's going on?"

The father smiles and says: " My son, pay attention ."

And then he screams to the mountain: " I admire you!" The voice answers: " I admire you !"

Again the man screams: " You are a champion !" The voice answers: " You are a champion !" The boy is surprised, but does not understand.

Then the father explains: " People call this ECHO, but really this is LIFE . It gives you back everything you say or do.

Our life is simply a reflection of our actions.

If you want more love in the world, create more love in your heart.

If you want more competence in your team, improve your competence.

This relationship applies to everything, in all aspects of life ; Life will give you back everything you have given to it.

"YOUR LIFE IS NOT A COINCIDENCE. IT'S A REFLECTION OF YOU!

Brought to you through me from Ken.

couch potato

Recently due to falling of ill, been staying home and becoming couch potato. With the kindness from Roy, i have another set of anime, Bleach. Then, i'm hooked onto the HK dramas on scv. Plus, the start of the EPL, hmm, i reckon that the title, couch potato is really too suitable for me. Hahaha...

help!!

my eye is damn swollen!!! :'(...

like what i had suspected. there are two bumps inside my eye and one of them is big lo. sobx sobx... i really should let the doc see me and get rid of the bumps liao instead of waiting for it to disappear on its own.

21 August 2006

What a monday morning!!! Firstly, the swell in my eye is still there irritating me lots. I'm suspecting this time i have more than one 'bump' inside my eye. Sianz...

Then, when i got to office this morning, got a shock of my life. No doubt everything was neat and tidy and clean. But, do they have to mess up everything??? Stacks of files being placed in different order. My boss 'fengshui' ornamental was placed in another place?!!! Damn!!! Luckily i have time to correct it, otherwise he would have flare up when he sees that his things were being touched.

Dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb!!!

What a day to kick start the week!!!

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happiness

Happiness is cherishing whatever you have now.

To Everyone

It is by fate that we met. Be it chance encounter, friends of friends introduction, at study place or work. Be it nice or nasty first impression.

We shall treasure the friendship upon us.

Accept one another as they are for there are no same identity. Accepting and forgiving will open one's heart to greater depth.

We shall not bear grudges for no one can predict what's gona happen next.

Time waits for no one. If you have the time to regret, why not utilise the time to amend?

Learning from mistake is never easy, however, repeating mistakes will make the learning doubly tough.

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suddenly mental block and can't continue to write liao.
hmm...

16 August 2006

Little writings lately. Kinda having mental block and hence been posting pics instead. Well, there are still alot more pics but seriously, there are just too many of them, haha. I have only selected a few... till i have the luxury of time, then i will complie them into frdster album.

Things are happening lately. Wonder if it's for the good or not. He's mature, extremely humourous and most importantly, he has respect me in one way which i feel touched. I just hope i didn't interprete wrongly.

Things are rather routine and nothing fantastic has happened. Just the usual, work eat sleep, drink and make merry. Lolx...

And i have finally gotten the book 6th of Harry Potter from snakie, finally!!! Now i'm torn between Mao, the unknown story and Harry. Hmmm... Guess i start with Harry and re-read the Mao again.

Eversince snakie is back, office is livelier. So nice to have her around. Yet, everyone in the office is like falling... falling sick that is. Sharma, Andy, snakie, June and me... mc here and there... coughing sounds everywhere... sigh...

Oh well, its the sick period here ... haha...

pics again

entrusting myself once more...

"words lie but actions don't" that was what he said to me last night.

More pics

Pics finally

waiting

when u can't wait for something to happen, the anxiety is simply killing.

The Word Is Happy

I am still mesmerising in the happiness i've felt last night.

"=>, n u'll find out"

He called. He called. He called.

Well, but one thingy for sure, he doesn't belong to the RO-MAN-TI-CA type. Sigh...

Or maybe, he's not showing it yet.

I'm waiting...

sick sick sick

feeling awful. throat damn itchy and pain, kept coughing and dizzy spells haunting me. Weak is the word.
Yet, doc diagnosed me as purely cough? unbelievable! i nearly fainted last eve and this morn and what i got is cough. Bravo.

:(

i'm missing 3 persons in my life now.

one is my bro, roy, whom i look upon to greatly. (hes out of town. back on fri)

the other is jackie, someone whom i have known since primary school. (hes out of town too, back on fri as well)

lastly but not the least, the guy whom surprised me with his actions on fri nite. (hes sleeping right now)

many things happened during the weekend. at lost at how to put it into words.

i'm just glad that in times of panicky, there are still frds around me to lend a helping hand. Thanks markio!

Idling

Haven't been working ... just no mood for it ... planning to come back on sun to do what i should have done today instead. My plan for sun, to wake up at 7am, have breakfast and head to office to work till 12pm. Then it's home to catch the latest drama by 183 club on scv and chores at the same time. After which, napping time!

It's gona be a brand new week then. Actually sunday is supposed to be the start of a new week. However, it just seems more logical for monday to be instead.

Anyway, i'm here blabbing and wasting my time away.

The other day i was listening to the radio and overheard about some comments about bloggers. That they are misleading the public with their negative writings and educating the public in a wrong way and that its mostly nonsense being written.

I beg to differ.

Because, no matter what, i've always believed that there is something to learn from even though it's of bad influence or on the negative side. It's that you learn not to do it.

And when you read into other people's feelings, you will learn to understand the complexity of human minds and relations between humans. Their behaviour etc. Sounds very psychology huh...

Oh, it's either you take it or leave it.

And besides it's also a way of friends being 'in touch' with one another. That we know how their are in everyday life. Good or bad.

Oops... i think i'm gona to fall asleep. Haiz...

Wendi asked me a Q yesterday.

What is the longest distance in the whole world? The whole universe.

It's not the distance between the sky and the ground. It's the distance of me standing in front of you and you not knowing that i love you.

Gosh... how true...

Yesterday i had for the first time tasted the infamous smelly beancurd with Mich, Wendi and Kevin. And my conclusion? Erm.... ok lo.... didn't find the smell repulsive, instead felt the very first note that strike my nose was nice. Pungent in a way that i can still accept it. However, the very first bite disappoints me lots. Didn't find it tasting unexceptionally good. Tasty but not enough to make me wanna specially head down for it. Rather it will be more of if i'm around the vinicity and friends wanna have that. Otherwise, don't find it worth the special trip.

Appetiser was at the smelly beancurd stall and the main course was at the yung he beancurd stall. Haaha.... from one end of Geylang to the other all for the sake of beancurd foodies.
Desert was at shin8 where we finish off the 1/3 of chivas we had left the other day and leaving the nite after 2 more bottles. Geez..... Is chivas becoming tea to us???

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i have finally gotten the 'mao, the unknown story'by jung chang. i couldnt believe my ears when i was told the whole lot was SOLD OUT when i went back 3 weeks later to buy since i first saw the book. well well, i'm glad that i have it now.

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yesterday, i was discussing 'time' with my colleague. about how in the past, when i knocked off after work, got home for dinner and could still find time for groceries shopping or kopi time with friends. or either there is still much time left to do stuffs after shopping. but now, cant seem to find that much time i used to have in the past. nowadays, even after i head home straight after work, i felt suffocated by the lack of time. nothing has changed. definitely not the time. its the mindset. perhaps i can no longer make use of the time i used to have.

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i did something bad couple of days back. if only someone can translate the underlying meaning to me.

me: hey, what ya doin now? wan come out for supper?

xx: i just knocked off.

me: dan u wanna makan? im at orchard now.

xx: with who else? n what to makan at orchard.

me: me alone. dun hav to eat at orchard bah...

xx: me tired. wanna go home liao. so no thx.

after the last msg i was very very angry. because, i just felt that this person here dun wana b with me alone n hence declined. what kind of frd is this? n so, i deleted his no. immediately. i felt that if this frd is sincere enough, the first response would be, i'm tired le, just knocked off. n not leading me like that. perhaps the idea of just the two of us makes this person feel kinda uncomfortable. because of not wanting me to believe into something that doesnt exist mah?

then, surprisingly, a call from this frd two days later asking me where i was. there was this intention of meeting up if im somewhere nearby.

i didnt even know why i had bothered to pick up the call. didnt know who the caller was but just felt familiar. n so i picked up.

still, i had not save back the no. just feel that, if this frd is sincere enough, there will be a response in time to come.

this is such a bad habit of mine. deleting no. away just like that.

can just cut off from everything else and indulge in my own world.

but no, im not going to play disappearing game again.

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this sat im going to play tennis again. am so excited. haahaa.... silly me rite?...

Life Answers

Got this from a bulletin board. Very meaningful....

Why are we constantly unhappy?
Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday.You are worrying because you are analyzing.Worrying has become your habit.That's why you are not happy.


But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.


But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty...
Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.


If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life becomes better, notbitter.


You mean to say such experience is useful?
Yes. In every term, experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.


But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can't we be free from problems?
Problems are purposeful roadblocks offering beneficial lessons to enhance mental strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance,not when you are free from problems.


Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading...
If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you'll dream. Looking inside, you'll awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.


Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?
Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.


In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.


What surprises you about people?
When they suffer they ask, "why me?"When they prosper, they never ask "Why me?"Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.


Sometimes I ask, "Who am I, why am I here?"I can't get the answer.
Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery, but a process of creation.


How can I get the best out of life?
Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.