Cycling in the Rain

I had wanted to run last night but it seems that i've been slacking for so long i barely had the stamina to do so. & so i brought my baby out for a ride instead.

The feeling was nice initially with the wind blowing on me, then came the slight drizzle turning into rain then back to drizzle again. All these didn't chase me home for i was enjoying every moment of it. I was going for rounds and rounds around my estate, listening to my ipod, totally into my own world, till, i saw lightnings striking across the black background.

Now that forced me to return home.

Monday Blues

Dreaded coming to office this morning. =( Was so because i only managed to sleep around 3 plus or 4 o'clock. Oh man... this is bad.

What made it worse was, the reason that aggravated the lost of sleep. He's making me all confused with his actions. What the hell does he want from me? Damn!!!

Anyway, shan't let myself be bothered with him.

I'm supposed to be in a happy mode. For December is arriving and i've got lotsa plans for this month.

December... here i come...

War Talk

I'm not exactly a war flims fanatic. But last night, i got myself "Black Hwak Down'. When the movie first arrived at the big screen, the main reason that drawn me into it was the casts. Josh Hartnett, Eric Bana, Orlando Bloom & Ewan Mcgregor. I simply can't resist.

Re-watching it last night made me felt much instead. The very first war flim i've watched was 'Saving Private Ryan'. Sure, i was affected by the gruesomes scenes, but that was it. I didn't like the storyline. It just didn't make any sense to me at that point of time. Long forgotten what the war was actually about. All i can remember was that it's a story of a group of soldiers risking their damn lives for a private who remained the last surviving heir of the family. For his mother had just lost 3 of her 4 sons. i just don't understand. War just don't make sense to me.

Then, "Pearl Harbour' came along. Tears flowed uncontrollably. I even caught it twice in the cinema. Okie, i must admit Josh Harnett was one of the attraction point. Still, it's an event of the century that can never be erased from the history. Sad just ain't the word anymore. It's more than that.

'BHD' was set in Somalia. The very same country that 'Desert Flower' originate its story from. In the very same place, people are fighting for their freedom. Their rights. Soldiers risking their lives to make peace and harmony. Chaos rules. n desert flower, fighting at the very same time to make a difference in her life.

Me? Struggling to make a pass for PSLE.

At certain point of time, perhaps war is truly inevitable. I just hope that we all do learn something from it.

There was this phrase by Eric Bana in the flim. "it's just about the man besides you'.

War is to gain strength to the power-obsessed, to make peace for the harmony seekers. & to the soldiers? It's about the man besides.

I hate wars. Not that there will be any on this planet will enjoy war. But i really hate it so. You can't control who to be shot. Who to be killed. You only have limited time to react or to be killed. You have no time to grieve for the lost one. The physical scars are tormenting but won't be comparable to the emotional wounds.

It feels great to be born into a country of peace and harmony, isn't it? No gun shots next door. No finding of grenades at your doorstep.

I consider myself a fussy when it comes to the movie. & Black Hwak Down? It's a great movie.

Wordings On My Forehead

Some months back, the heading on my forehead was 'Break my heart'.

& now, it's leave me alone. But the leaving me alone isn't about the affairs of heart. It's just that i'm utterly disgusted with the humans' behaviour.

Perhaps i'm asking too much. To just wanting to appreciate the goodness in life. To just see the beauty in every aspect and away with the ugliness, hideous, pretentious faces of everyone.

Everyone of us is wearing a mask in one way or another. A mask to hide away our sadness. A mask to cover the scars. A mask which speaks i'm tough. A mask to act snob. A mask to be indifferent. A mask which lies. A mask of everything except the true self. Or perhaps, it is the true self after all. Yet, that mask is a mask of ugliness.

I'm too wearing a mask. A mask which says, i'm trying to belong. Hiding the facts that i actually don't belong anywhere.

I'm puzzled, bewildered and lost with the people surounding me with their words and actions and i pray very hard to just have them out of my sight. But it's impossible. Hence, instead of getting them to leave me, i have chosen to make my departure. Not letting myself into their world. I'm in my own world. & i'll only welcome who those are true to themselves.

Forwarded Mail

A boy was born to a couple after eleven years of marriage.

They were a loving couple and the boy was the gem of their eyes. When the boy was around two years old, one morning the husband saw a medicine bottle open. He was late for office so he asked his wife to cap the bottle and keep it in the cupboard. His wife, preoccupied in the kitchen totally forgot the matter.

The boy saw the bottle and playfully went to the bottle fascinated by its color and drank it all. It happened to be a poisonous medicine meant for adults in small dosages. When the child collapsed the mother hurried him to the hospital. He died. The mother was stunned.

She was terrified how she was going to face her husband.When the distraught father came to the hospital and saw the dead child, he looked at his wife and uttered just five words.


QUESTIONS :1. What were the five words ?

2. What is the implication of this story


ANSWER :The husband just said "I am with you Darling".

The husband's totally unexpected reaction is a proactive behavior. The child is dead. He can never be brought back to life. There is no point in finding fault with the mother. Besides, if only he had taken time to keep the bottle away, this would not have happened.

No one is to be blamed. She had also lost her only child.What she needed at that moment was consolation and sympathy from the husband. That is what he gave her.

If everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective, there would be much fewer problems in the world. "A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step." Take off all your envies, jealousies, unforgiveness, selfishness, and fears. And you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think.

MORAL OF THE STORY

This story is really worth reading. Sometimes we spend time in asking who is responsible or whom to blame, whether in a relationship, in a job or with the people we know. By this way we miss out some warmth in human relationship.

Let Me Hide

The depression bug is here again to bug me. I'm building walls around me simply because i wanna shut myself up for this period of time, let me hibernate till i'm ready to brace the world again.

Diwali Beer & Bites

Was at 'Diwali Beer & Bites' last night. As the name implies, it was a night of Deepavali celebration & partying with lotsa liqour. Our dear Sharma had a bar counter located just after the entrance of his house & i was 'wowed' by his cabinet of liqour. His collection definitely doesn't lose out to a small pub outside. Whichever drink you want it, just name it & you will have it. What should be a house function seemed more like a pub/bar party to me. Lolx...

Now i know why he's such a good drinker. =p

Ohh, & the food served was delicious... great authentic Indian cuisine done by Sharma's lovely wife. My taste buds simply had the best of time last night. =D

Turning Into A Bookworm

Been burying myself into books lately. Currently flipping the Desert Flower & Ming Dao's Adventure Journey. =)

The former is an inspirational read while the latter is so full of adventure that i'll probably won't mind trading for anything at all just to jump in his ride.

Desert Flower is about a desert nomad of Somalia who turned into a supermodel of the world. Her life as child in Somalia hits me pretty hard. One thing about the people living in a third world country, is that they worry only about the natural elements. Here? we are more concern about the material stuffs. Maybe because we don't have to worry about not having water or even food, hence the hunger for material needs instead. I'm still halfway through the book, about her life as child. Being forced to go through circumcision and a arranged marriage at the age of barely fourteen. The descriptions of her going through the circumcision made me nearly vomitted out my dinner because the real image was running live in my head as each and every word types into my head. The thought of such act, the "ridiculous theory of circumcision", makes my heart pain for all the girls there.

The latter is so full of adventures that makes me wanna jump into his ride straight away. Ohh, the countries he been to, Egypt, Namibia, New Zealand, Tunisia, Alaska, Indonesia, Thailand etc... i was salivating... haha not for the food but for the adventures... =p

Bring me out of Singapore!!!!

Holidays Gone

I'm gona miss the past week terribly. Been a long while since i was so relaxed. Simply lazing around, having high tea with my gal pal, shopping around and everything was done at my own pace. Not having to check the time frequently. Gosh, the pleasure of not looking at the clock.

Hmm, however all good things must come to an end. Well, at least my battery will be fully charged. Not like the past where it's only half charged. Lolx...

I miss my home too though i was only away for a night's stay at KL. But a pity that i was denied a visit to Petronas Twin Towers again for it was closed again. =( Fret not, i'll definitely be back again. Haha... Because i want to have that 'being on top' feel!!! I want my A&W's curly fries, dunkin donuts, the ramli burgers, the hawker fare there and the various animations too)... haha...

I guess i must have more kilos now because i was eating n eating non stop throughout the trip. =p & i'll make sure i get myself more animations too. =( only got myself a X dvd. Should have gotten the others too but there was too much hesitations at that time. ARGH.... me n my indecisiveness.

This one night trip seems to make myself more determined to head back. Lolx.. cause i realised there was a lot of stuff which i wanted to do but didn't. Like getting on the coaster ride at the theme park, shopping at the chinatown, chillin out at the Beach etc... But because i had snakie with me mah... gee... if anything happens to her, how on earth do i answer to her hubby? =S But it's okie. We had pretty much fun too. haha... & i guess i'll still choose to stay at Berjaya. It's so convieniently located, just a tad shame that it had less food joints as compared to KLCC.

Ohhh... n how i miss the night view. It was splendid. It's already wonderful during the usual nights, n it was so much better during my stay. For it was the Hari Raya Puasa n everywhere was fireworks. The first fireworks which i caught was at the Bintang area. Gosh, it was so close. The sounds were rather deafening but we couldn't care less. & when we were back at the hotel, when overlooking the citysky, you could still catch the fireworks which were popping out randomly in between the buildings.

I feel great now. =)

Hmmm but a little disappointed because probably the birthday present i've wanted to give myself might have to be postponed-Trip to Hanoi. Because of the bird flu. Nevermind, i'm sure i'll think of something better. =p